Obstacles

I've already blog part of the family drama I mentioned last time

note : it's only part of that .

I am tired to type everything out , and it hurts to recall everything back .

I still cant hold my tears whenever I thought about my grandma .

The sem break wasn't a break to me

It was the hardest time for me in year 2011.

simply 3 weeks , happened so many things .

I haven't get enough time to absorb everything .

my friends will be quite curious why I reacted so excited

when I heard about the other death news

but yea , I really cant accept it .

the feelings like ,

why some people can ended their life so easily where some are fighting against all odds just to survive even a minute more .

after all this , I was back to my college life

being able to smile , try to chill with my friends

but another conflict happened btw us .

I have to admit this is also another hit for me ...

why everything happened without a break .

I try to save everything , to sort everything out with my own courage .

yea , I did it ,

not to say very successfully ,

but at least ,

it did not become worse .

and now , stressful-ness of studying is bothering me ...

ICAEW ,

I'm starting to doubt myself whether I can finish this stage smoothly

I doubt my ability .

I do not have the motivation to study at all ,

and PT1 is on this saturday.

I know people learn to be tough whenever they meet obstacles

but I chose to stop right in front of the obstacles .

I'm seriously too tired to continue this life journey .

although smileys in texts ,

smileys in chat windows

can help to avoid answering some questions that I dun wan to answer

but who knows what am I thinking exactly ?

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