Long long night

hmm ...

talked to ms carmenlow just now

I think this is the 1st time I tell her about that .

also the 1st time I ever tell this to my classmate .

haiz ...kind of emo things

but she'd point out some areas where I'd never seen that before .

"nothing comes easy in life . if you think its worth it , you'll stay till the very end , hoping that everything's going to end well . even if it doesn't , at least you'll know you did your best and there wont be any regrets in your life "

"it's too late to stop now , both of you went this far , its not easy to find the right person . now you think you found it , dont give up so easily , even though the road is not going to be smooth . it all depends on how you see though . "

thanks babe.

to me ,

I doubt that we have the so-called future.

but you'd asked me back , why are there a limit ?

but somehow , I just dunno why .

maybe we're not ready ?

we dont trust each other that much ?

ahhh ...questions mark filled in my brain ,

the same questions ,

the same thoughts ,

but there's no answer .

like what I said ,

how I wish I can end everything by now

VS

how I wish he speaks out the words

HAHAHAH

so contradictory right ?

I'm so gonna become crazy now , right now !

save me from this hell shit of problems .

:(