Thank you Sze Ern !!!!

p/s if you got update my blog , i will sure you see this simple post !

just to say thank you ^^

CFAB orientation diner

changed my blog skin >>> back to the very simple layout =)

simple is the best ^^


the busy week had passed ....
CFAB orientation dinner was held successfully ! clapsss !!!!
this is the 1st event the cfab-ians held and it was awesome ! ^^V
( photos in Facebook )
quite fun and happy to meet UK president , Mr Hagen .



back to last week , PT 2 and BM mock exam were over
some of my classmate failed AG , everyone was so stress !
we couldn't practice our performance well .....=(
(and yea , i screw the performance =[ sad )



time to back on the track ....I must put more effort on my studies now ~


don't have mood to blog on recent stories ...
don't ask why ...
but yea , i will tell you I'm okay , even i'm not .






good night everyone .





---thanks to everyone that concern about me . =)

random

another week has past
I'm recovering slowly but ...i still miss him , my dear cousin .

tiring week ,
having almost 8 hours class everyday including saturday !!!!

AG PT 2 is on monday ,
B.Maths mock exam on tuesday ...
and yet .... i haven't start to study and revise !

screw them up !

=(

the longest week i had ....
=(
everything was going in the other way round ...it's not normal !!!!

heard about many sad news and they hurts me ...
doen't have the intention to blog on ....
but i surely remember that i cried the most this week....
=(


wish everything is going well to you , tyang .
good luck .
Jia ping's here to support you .

永远怀念你

亲爱的表哥 ，


在此祝你一路好走。
安息吧， 你已经得到了解脱。
相信你在天堂会过得开开心心。
你的下辈子也将会是个健健康康的人， 能走，能跳， 能跑！


今早出席你的葬礼。。。
我的心， 非一般的痛。
看见舅舅留泪满面的样子， 我的眼泪不受控制的流了下来。。。
心里的痛， 不时的倍增。
看见你的家人， 为你留下一句又一句难忘的遗言，心情更加不受控制，眼泪就是不停的流。


舅舅在音乐的陪同下，
在棺木旁，哽咽的唱着平时他为你唱的歌曲。。。
顿时，这些歌曲变得特别有意义， 那就是爱 ！ 爸爸的爱！
一边抚摸着你那冰冷的脸庞， 一边唱着那令人心疼的歌曲， 歌词与旋律都是模糊不清的
但是在场的所有人都相信这是你一辈子听见最动听的歌曲。
在场的所有人没有一位不被感动至流泪。。。。
大家心里的疼， 不只是眼泪流下的那么简单，而是心疼你，与你的家人。



看见舅母在棺木旁， 哽咽的对着你说“明勤 ， 你要知道妈妈很疼你的！”
在场的所有人，都被这句话感动至直抹眼泪。。。
看见大表姐站在舅舅身旁，拍打着他的肩膀，安慰着他，
但是相信她心里的疼，是没人能够了解的。
身为医生姐姐，亲自证实弟弟的死亡， 有谁能够接受那是个事实？！
坚强的她，成为了整个家庭的精神支柱，
坚强的她，难道就能够痛忍弟弟的离开吗？



在棺木未盖之前，我们每人都为你献上一朵白玫瑰，也献上了我们的祝福。
你亲爱的爸爸也为你以箫吹了一首歌曲， 并把此箫当作陪葬品，如今你收到了吗？



那晚的打斋，我回想起你，
回想起你是如何称呼我。
你永远都不会忘了我的名字，因为你看不见我们，
唯一你能够办到的就是熟背我们的声音。。。。
你不想被我们遗忘，所以每次聚会你都会参与。




表哥， 我永远不会忘记你的样子。
表哥， 我永远不会忘记你的声音。
表哥， 我永远不会忘记你是如此的俊俏。
表哥， 我永远不会忘记我曾经是你的表妹。
表哥， 我永远不会忘记你！




年仅28 岁的你， 如今已经走向极乐世界。
今日，也是你人生中最后一个告别仪式。
身为你的表妹，再此祝愿你，
下辈子是个健康的人， 活在健康且幸福快乐的日子。
表哥 ， 安息吧～





哭红了双眼，忍痛把这篇文章打完。
此时此刻，我的心情无法用任何哟个形容词来形容。
但是我相信， 你不会想看见我们为你伤心那么久。
我依然相信， 你现在就在天堂，无时无刻的守护着我们。




表哥，我怀念你。





表妹上

R.I.P

just heard a sad news ......

couldn't believe that's true ....

reading every post that wrote on the wall ...

tears coming down automatically ...

couldn't stop the tears and my heart is so pain ....

乐贤

I don't know you , but i've seen you .

we always meet when I'm leaving the class , while you are climbing up the stairs .

you always have you dad beside you , accompany you and bring you books .

and today , you leave us .

You've gone to another world .

I don't know you well , but through the wall post , i can concluded that

you are really a tough and brave girl i ever met .

you are determined and you have the courage to live on your life !

you have a supportive family , and although you having health problems,

you don't treat yourself as a patient , you wanted to continue your studies !

you wanted to live as how normal people live on !

Gal , you did it , You successfully done that !

We feel proud of you <3

We will never forget that's a gal named 乐贤,

you will always be with us , forever and ever ....

because we know , your soul will be with us !

Rest In Peace .

乐贤， 你我虽不认识，但是我看过你。
你的坚强，你的乐观，你那份勇敢的心，我们看见了真正的你。
虽然你已经离开了我们，但是，在这里让你知道，
乐贤永远都会留在大家的心里，永远都不会忘记这位坚强勇敢的小女孩。
乐贤得家长，你们有一位很棒的女儿，你们给与她的照顾，关怀，相信她永远都不会忘记你们曾经是她的父母。
乐贤在极乐世界，一定会过得开心，因为她就是我们心里的天使。
乐贤，安息吧~ 我们永远祝福你 ♥

Review of the week

this week was long .....

hmm .....

nothing much to blog on ...

but just my class ....

ewwww ...i don't like debating ....

yup ..honestly ... is breaking the friendship bond among us !

this shouldn't happen ...and the lecturer didn't control us ...

just to win the points by our stand , we said everything included the irrelevant ones

and just to make the others speechless ...is this the point of debating ??????

I hate the arguing , noisy class ... is not organised !

what for we argued since there's always no conclusion !

don't say something that can hurt others , just to get our side won the debate !!!

turn and play around with the words people said , and to attack whenever there's a chance ....

think wisely .....the class' structure shouldn't be like this ....

a classroom is mean for the students to study ,

for the classmates to build up their bonds ...and is not to debate....

accounting class is getting tougher and more confusing .....

no comment on that , but we can't deny that the lecturer is so patient .

but what we want is just to get straight to the point , not to turn around ....

don't like to study in a mess condition ....

meaningless ....

dear angel

here is the short post for my angel <3


dear angel ,
I din know you read and follow my blog updates . haha ^^
and thanks for the lil notes ,
copying and pasting the same phrase i wrote here ><'''


hmm ....
sorry to tell you that I have lactose intorelant (don't know spelling)
so , i couldn't drink the yogurt , so sorry !
but anyway , thanks for that.


and and and , yea , I like blueberry ^^ thank you very much ^^

trauma =(

I woke up on time to prepare myself to the 1st class after the BORED holidayz ....

wasn't in a bad mood , everything's going well ....so I thought I will enjoy the day ! ^^

but ...

but ......

but ..........

BUT .............

argh ~ when I was driving ...I'm in fear !!!!!!

heartbeat in an abnormal rate !!!!!

I don't know why ~

just feel nervous and panic .....

I scared of driving ? oh no !!!!!!

It couldn't be !!!!!!

I tried to calm down myself ....switch on the radio loud >.<''''' but ....still ......=(

but weird feelings popped out ...is so WEIRD !!!!!!!

I'm seriously not in a normal emotions ....

nervous > sad> panic > worry > depress > calm ...

these emotions changed every second !!!!!!

imagine it happened when I was driving !!!!!!!

ohhhhhh NOOOOO !!!!!!!!

I almost giving up and luckily i can stop while trap in a traffic jam in the toll ....

it'd calm me down ...

and I comfort myself ...."going to reach" ....

sadly ....I couldn't find carpark in campus and I need to go "elephant walk"

*the nightmare*

I was extremely quiet in the class today ....

I can't stop thinking if that .....

luckily , I'm okay after the lunch break

It is much more okay ~

New start

I'm officially OKAY right now !
thank you bloggie ...


I should have a new start!
putting more effort to do every single things !
I wanna be myself ,
do whatever I can do ,
don't ask for return ,
only for the happiness I can get !
^^V


life is all about contributing ...
contribute what I have !


Dear Friends , I'm here ! ^^V
need my help ?
shout my name !!!!!!!


" winnie !!!!!!!!! " "Jia Ping !!!!!!!!"
" yes , may I help you ?"



blekz =p

Holiday

This holiday is extraordinary unhappy .
I din know why ...but I hate the bored days I had ...


the activities I did the most is sleep ...sleep ...sleep ....SLEEP ...
yea ~ I can sleep a lot ...because i love to sleep ~~~~


friends that are not in holiday are so busy recently ...
so I din contact them ...but waiting for their msg everyday ...=.=''' BORED ...


the CFAB-ians are also so quiet ...maybe everyone has their own activities ...
so ..left me ...BORED


but something do motivate me for the whole week ! yeah , the outing , the dinner !
planning for an outing ...
but at last ....
they disappointed me ...
so.....uncontrollable emotions came ! and I get mad !
yeah ~ extremely angry these days ....
all of them were shock ---- why I had such a big reaction , because it's just a small case ...
which I don't think so ...


the words that they sent in the msg ....
is freaking HURT !!!!!!! but they din know ...
so ....what to do .....their thinking , we can't changed .


I kept thinking , and reflects myself , did I over-react ?
why I had these anger ....
the words are not striking myself ...
but I'm just angry ...angry ....for their attitude ? maybe ....but I'm not sure ...



I care more about you , you .......youshouldknowwhoyouare ........
because I scared to lose you as my true friend ....
why I say so .... **there is always a reason behind** ...
yeap ....coz I can feel the distance ....

fear fear fear....
I can't afford to lose anyone of you ...
the bad experience I had in my secondary schooldays....
made me lost confidence in my friendship
I can't take it anymore ....can't ...


you know the story behind ...
and you should know what am I thinking ...
friends are extremely important to me ....
and you , you , you ~
you are important to me too ...<3


I care too much , and that's why I hurt myself ?
I share my stories with you all the time ,
and I've gain the confidence when I'm with all of you ...
the happiness and the stupidity we had ,
and the moment we spent together ,
make me feel that I'm save in the ship ,
It wouldn't sink anymore , I'm saved !
I can feel that , I get the right choice.....


but now ...
now ....


I'm scared ,
I panic ...
I'm nervous ....
I'm worry ....
I felt it this going to sink ?????
because I don't want anyone of you to leave me ....


I'm selfish ? maybe ...
selfish for my own friends ,
I willing to do that ....
just blame me , I'm SELFISH ~


you read the post
maybe you're thinking something , which I don't know ...
but I've already did what I managed to ...
to move a big step forward , to lend my hand out ...
hoping there's some wood or trunks
or your hand .....
to avoid me from drowning in the sea ...


I've tried my very best to do everything ....
=) I'll attend that event . thank you .


p/s
--- chat with Jack , you make my mind clear , thank you .
and I know I should continue to contribute my effort .
You make me feel that I'm not alone , coz you have the same thinking with me ? O.o
haha ~

--- chat with wen hui last time , she did say lots of my personalities which I din realize ...
lolx ~ wen hui , thank you . You analyzed everything well for me . and don't scare to lose me , I'm will not let you go ~ =p




friends are the ones that I care the most and I loves the most .
that's you , everyone that reading my super-long post =p

Silence

Silent days , silent nights ....
the night appeared to be extremely silent when the rain comes ...


It makes me to recall something that I shouldn't think of it anymore ...
the promises that you gave me ,
the ways you take care of me ,
the moment we solved problems together ,
the moment you comforted me when I'm crying ,
the dialogue we had ,
the messages you sent to me ,
the moment we were in the silence ...


I miss that so much
but I know and understand ,
this should all ended now .
ya , it's game over !
and I'd know this is nothing for me to recall ....
I didn't blame anyone ,
just here to say , thank you .


thank you for lending me your shoulder whenever I need ,
thank you for accompanying me when I'm in trouble ,
thank you for caring me so much ,
thank you for the memories you gave me .


we're still friend , forever .

Happy Birthday

Happy birthday ~ to Mr Teh Teong Hoe ! (TTH)
You are now officially 18 !!!! and you are allowed to watch *akhem* movies ! lolx !

haha ~

0105 , meaningful date for you , and if you inversed it ...lolx ~ haha~
I'd know you had a unforgettable birthday this year ^^
and ...your present ...sorry , I'll try to get it , (if I can) =p


happy birthday!!!!!! happy birthday !!!!!
and lastly , congratz that you have a facebook account !


wish you all the best in your future life , which is form 6 .
hmm .....don't think so negatively , and you will be okay .
sweet life , awesome partner you have , enjoy it !



p/s apologize for the last post here =)

changes ??? (edited)

to someone I concerned so much ....that's you ! ^^

maybe you were mad to me , for that event , here I post what i can see ...
as you said , "something is not so simple as you can see ..."
yea ... you are right , but maybe our point of view are different ?O.o

I mentioned before , I don't know how you think and what you feel recently ....
is true ..even now ...
reason ???? hmm .... i'm not sure about that ...
but maybe i can spot changes on you ...


changes ?
yea , but I can't figure out the points where you've changed
but can feel that ...
and I'd console myself with the environment factors
yeap ...the environment changes us !
when you are in the new college life ,
you may change yourself to suit the exactly situation you are ,
but you will not know you're actually different from last time ...


you'll ask me how you change ?
hmm .....maybe you are not so talkative like last time?
to me , you are now much more secretive ...
unpredictable ?
aiya ...don't know la ....
maybe i sensed wrongly ?

since the complicated event happened , i worry you so much ....
I knew you were confused , but I don't know what you confused about ....
watching you torture by the guilt , I felt I'm so useless ...
I can't do anything to help you ...


so do I ?
i'm not sure about me myself =.='''
maybe i changed also .....
I'm now much more quiet compare to last time ....
maybe you can see that ....
talk less when we go out .....
why ? i don't know ...
maybe i scared ...there's no response ....
so ...i just smile and laugh lolx ~


but I'll try to maintain what I should be when I'm with all of you ....
i can feel the distance between us , you get what I mean ?
i've tried to bridge the gap , but now i'm tired to do that ...
i've do my best to contribute what i can ,
but in return , i get nothing ...
fed-up la wei ~ tire dy .... maybe i wants response .....am I selfish ????


and now , i know ...
i cant do anything without all of u ...
we need to work together to achieve something ...
the cycle runs in that way ....
do I will upset for everything that is not fully achieved ...

thinking so negatively ....i realized ...
and i know ,
I shall be the people working out behind ,
but not the important one
because all of you will be the important ones , rather than me ...


no point giving out too much if that person doesn't appreciate it , remember this ?
yea , now i'm following this rule ... =)