Feelings

Actually I have a lots of thoughts need to blog in 

but somehow when I place my fingers on the keyboard 

all the thoughts have become some feeling and I have no words to describe them 

Always argue with the one I love  

I hate it , I was super angry , and sad , of course , 

the feeling of tearing my heart apart is awful 

Maybe I'm being too sensitive ?

Jealousy is a form of love 

but this is too torturing , aint it ?

I trust him 

but I don't have confidence with myself 

He is the one I speak to everynight before I sleep 

He is the one I first texted him every morning 

He is the one I always cry on the phone , complaining everything 

He doesn't think argue is bad 

I asked , why are us always arguing on all those small matters ?
I don't want this to happen , but why cant we control ourselves ?

and he answered me , I don't mind arguing with you because I know we will be alright after all this.
couples always argue , don't they ?
If they don't , I doubt they are the real couple . 

somehow I am glad that he is so sure that we will be alright after the mess . 

but I still cant take it , arguing is just like hurting me , hurting him , hurting us . 

I hate the pain in my heart 

I hate the tears that flows from my eyes 

I hate it when we say things we don't mean to each others . 

I'm so lost 

crying myself to sleep ? 

well maybe I should stop thinking that much 

Do you think I can ? 

haha ! that's a complete joke . 

because you know I wont . 

Hope everything will be fine 

Rainbow appears only after rain and when there's sunshine

I know we will see the rainbow very soon .