Rant

Guy 1

hey , you're the best friend for me , after so many dramas in my high school .

do you remember what separated us ?

but we'd manage to fix it ,and we're now best best friends .

I shared most of my feelings to you , and you know me quite well

sometimes you'd have the same feelings , but we're just don't want it to break any friendship bond between all of us

we tried to work things out together , and you're the one who always support me , and help me .

I'd really feel sorry to not turn up tonight , and I feel bad to you .

and this is why I'm here to blog about all these .

read a long and you will figure it out =)

I like you being straight forward and of course you're FUN too

you don't like to imitate as well as fake your characters .

this is why I chose to tell you everything , proud of it huh ~?

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Guy 2

everyone knows this , we were friends since ages ago

therefore , everyone will automatically link us together whenever something happened

but the truth is , are we that close actually ?

I can't really figure it out

do you ?

It has become a habit to rely each other

but the consequences of this is we will easily get mad when either one of us broke the rule

maybe is just me , but sometimes I'd feel the weird feeling between us ~

but I don't know how to describe it .

You behave 100% differently when you're with college friends , and with us or I should say , me

but well , maybe this is all my problems .

or , environment changes both of us ? =/

but well , it has been a lil better now , compared to last time .

move on , can I trust both of us =)

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Guy 3

you are the one who I will text you early in the morning , to say "good morning"

and wish you good luck for your exams .

this will occur when I found out that we hadn't meet each other for quite a long time

to me , you're a very strong , good in management , kind-hearted guy

and I feel secure when I'm with you

you have a very important place in my life but I doubt you know it

I miss the time that you arranged everything well for us ,

and you planned well for every events .

every time when there's an outing , I'll wish that you'll be there

but when you didn't turn up , I felt disappointed and angry .

I don't know why is it like this , but I just felt that you should be there

the anger will immediately disappear when the next time I saw you !

and all is forgiven .

this is how amazing you are .

[ this is why you will never know I'd ever get angry because of you ]

yea , again i said , you've a irreplaceable role to me .

and I'm pretty sure that you wouldn't know this paragraph existed .

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I feel crazy after i wrote all this

I really feel extremely lost and I don't know how to handle all this situations

it might not be an issue to you , but it is to me

the more I care about that , the more I put myself into disappointment

the more I want this group of us together , the more I feel that we are tearing apart

the more I want this to be forever , the more it wouldn't be .

I'm the one who linked everyone of us to this gang , but i failed to maintain the closeness

was a monitor and somehow we gone into this friendship

but I've no confidence that this will last . because if you're in the picture

you can know how difficult for us to meet up , even only for a yam char session .

if you're the one who organizing that , for the purpose to catch up with each other

and turn out that not much response and with some others excuses

immediately you can ever feel that your heart's breaking .

although a mini group chatting was awesome too , but if everyone can talk together , isn't that even better than anything else ?

I know that these are all nonsenses

I need to rant , that's all .

sighs ~

what else can I do to make it better ?

you will never know what happen next ...

and who can assure me that everything can be like what we used to be ?