Rant

Guy 1

hey , you're the best friend for me , after so many dramas in my high school .

do you remember what separated us ?

but we'd manage to fix it ,and we're now best best friends .

I shared most of my feelings to you , and you know me quite well

sometimes you'd have the same feelings , but we're just don't want it to break any friendship bond between all of us

we tried to work things out together , and you're the one who always support me , and help me .

I'd really feel sorry to not turn up tonight , and I feel bad to you .

and this is why I'm here to blog about all these .

read a long and you will figure it out =)

I like you being straight forward and of course you're FUN too

you don't like to imitate as well as fake your characters .

this is why I chose to tell you everything , proud of it huh ~?

**********

Guy 2

everyone knows this , we were friends since ages ago

therefore , everyone will automatically link us together whenever something happened

but the truth is , are we that close actually ?

I can't really figure it out

do you ?

It has become a habit to rely each other

but the consequences of this is we will easily get mad when either one of us broke the rule

maybe is just me , but sometimes I'd feel the weird feeling between us ~

but I don't know how to describe it .

You behave 100% differently when you're with college friends , and with us or I should say , me

but well , maybe this is all my problems .

or , environment changes both of us ? =/

but well , it has been a lil better now , compared to last time .

move on , can I trust both of us =)

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Guy 3

you are the one who I will text you early in the morning , to say "good morning"

and wish you good luck for your exams .

this will occur when I found out that we hadn't meet each other for quite a long time

to me , you're a very strong , good in management , kind-hearted guy

and I feel secure when I'm with you

you have a very important place in my life but I doubt you know it

I miss the time that you arranged everything well for us ,

and you planned well for every events .

every time when there's an outing , I'll wish that you'll be there

but when you didn't turn up , I felt disappointed and angry .

I don't know why is it like this , but I just felt that you should be there

the anger will immediately disappear when the next time I saw you !

and all is forgiven .

this is how amazing you are .

[ this is why you will never know I'd ever get angry because of you ]

yea , again i said , you've a irreplaceable role to me .

and I'm pretty sure that you wouldn't know this paragraph existed .

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I feel crazy after i wrote all this

I really feel extremely lost and I don't know how to handle all this situations

it might not be an issue to you , but it is to me

the more I care about that , the more I put myself into disappointment

the more I want this group of us together , the more I feel that we are tearing apart

the more I want this to be forever , the more it wouldn't be .

I'm the one who linked everyone of us to this gang , but i failed to maintain the closeness

was a monitor and somehow we gone into this friendship

but I've no confidence that this will last . because if you're in the picture

you can know how difficult for us to meet up , even only for a yam char session .

if you're the one who organizing that , for the purpose to catch up with each other

and turn out that not much response and with some others excuses

immediately you can ever feel that your heart's breaking .

although a mini group chatting was awesome too , but if everyone can talk together , isn't that even better than anything else ?

I know that these are all nonsenses

I need to rant , that's all .

sighs ~

what else can I do to make it better ?

you will never know what happen next ...

and who can assure me that everything can be like what we used to be ?

Random

I have been lazy for more than 3 weeks

and now it's the time to back on track

to start studying for Assurance

because PT1 is around the corner , which is next saturday =/

well , nothing much to elaborate on that

and I would like to continue with something happened last week

Moral final is over !

but we'd already knew that we passed our paper before the exam because of our assignments

after the final , we celebrated Crystiex birthday .

" innocent , pretty , smart , cute , penguin .... " and so on are the words that I used to describe her

so you can imagine she's absolutely amazing , right ?

happy birthday , crys !

all the best to you in your life =D

heard a bad news from a friend that his gf was get into a car accident

luckily , she wasn't injured and only car damaged

when it comes to driving , I'd have some phobia to it

this is so-called the "over-obsessed-issue" of myself

I'm just so stress when it comes to driving

sighs ~

something wrong with me ,

and I just have to pretend that everything is okay and alright

more and more assignments are coming and we are still not in the mood huh ~?

I'll try my best to work things out =/

p/s Winn says she misses her friends so much =)

This is who am I

maybe I'm too obsessed over everything that happened around me

but it's just me ,

I couldn't change my behavior and attitude towards everything

so , you might ask me , why ?

the reason is pretty simple

because I mind my own steps

I don't allow any wrong steps being taken and it ruin my life

This is the most negative side of me , i knew it

but I can't change it , this is who am I ...

you might say ,

it's already over , and you can't change whatever that already happen

what you can do is to accept it as a lesson you learnt

well , I'd say the same thing to everyone

but say it out is easier than doing it

you are not the one who faces the problem

you are not the one who have to fix it

you are not the one who really have to deal with it

and

you are not me

even I don't know what I'm feeling right now

how could you know ?

being myself is tougher than what I thought of

maybe this is the reason why I cant walk out from the dark

=/

here I come to talk

but I have no one to talk to

not okay

fine , maybe I need to talk to myself

keep my mouth shut

and think myself =/

p/s : a scratch

Gossip Girl

The laziest week !

yea , read the title and you can figure what's going to post in this post !

hmm .....LAZY !

my 5-day-classes has been shorten to 3 days , which means , self-declared holidays for 2 days !

LOL!

I've skipped my English class on Thursday and Moral on Friday =/

feeling a bit guilty for that , sorrieee ~

== KPMG visit ==

Monday , actually we have a firm visiting to KPMG

it was a fun one and I know KPMG now ~

oh ya , out of accident , I've became Danny daddy's daughter !

LOL , dunno what happen and we were so excited and Danny has 5 daughter in a shot !

me , Carmen , Celia , Kah mun and Crys !

== Cinema ---Wall Street ==

It was totally awesome , if you find out actually we used 1 section of our class to watch movie !

uh-uh ~ but .....HAHAHAHAH ! actually i slept in the cinema ~

wonder what happened !

so , don't ask me about the movie , because I don't know the story plot well =/

what i can tell you about this movie is >>> stock market , money laundering and bla bla bla ~

my rating is "okay okay la"

so yea , I think this was what happened in a week

kind of boring week and motivation-less week =/

i'm getting lazier and lazier .....

oooooowwwwwh ~~~~!!!!!

p/s I'm actually watching Gossip Girl ! =D