Life Goes On

I believe June is a tough month to me , and my family ....

Please don't ask whether I am okay

what I will tell is I'm okay

in fact ,

I know I'm not .

Appreciate

has been quite a long time I din blog here .

and now , after struggling and I decided to blog on some feelings .

tears are flowing down when I heard the song amazing grace playing .

Lots of unfortunate events happened recently and they hit me hard .

I don't know how to describe my feelings but knowing I have lost myself .

first up with the death of my grandma ,

followed up with the death of my friend's brother .

I cant calm myself down every time I think of them .

I miss my grandma , I miss her much ....

I cant accept the death of my friend's brother ....

my grandma passes away , it took me more than a week to calm down myself

to accept the fact that she left ....

and when I was starting to cheer myself up , another bad news hit me

at this moment , I have nothing much to say

Life is so fragile , people are so fragile ,

we are not as tough as we can see .

appreciate life , appreciate friends around you .

and to me , friends' support is very important and thus ,

no matter what I will show support to my friends .

me as a friend to hao fu , I've already done my best ,

show him that we're here to support him , as always .

We need friends , we need family .

nothing will torn us apart .

I know everything will be fine , but at this moment of time , I know I'm not .

what I need is time .

it takes time to heal this , which I dun know how long will it take .

Rest In Peace

刚刚出席了豪政的追思会。

心里感触良多。

泪水不受控制的留下。

听着倪父叙说儿子的生涯 ，

看见豪政的亲戚朋友们都为他撒下泪水， 不禁心疼了一阵

看见倪父和倪妈为孩子的去世，留下的泪水，爱莫能助

只能够在旁，给予豪户精神上的支持。

加油吧。

豪政，一路好走， 平静的回到主的身旁。

请尊重

不幸的消息传来， 心里一阵寒了。。。

他， 应该是我朋友的弟弟。

突然， 心疼了起来， 想起他的家人的感受

不禁眼泪流了下来。

心情才慢慢的平复下来， 死讯有在传入耳里

死者已矣， 就别在意见那么多。

我们能够办到的， 就是尊重死者。

相信大家都明白这个道理吧。

旁人别再说是谁的不是， 是谁处理不妥当。

有关的人， 自己应该得到自己良心的责备。

无论他们口中向大众报道的， 与正真发生的事情， 是否正确， 就只有他们心里自己知道

那么多个版本的故事， 能够相信哪个？

有哪个人不是先保着自己的名誉？ 有哪个校长不保着自己学校的名誉？

丧子之痛， 有谁能够承受的住？

试想想， 当你完全不知道孩子事前发生的事情， 突然收到校方拨打的电话要见家长。

但是， 当你抵达校园的时候见到的，就只剩下那冷冰冰，孩子的尸体。

试问，谁能够接受这个事实？

恳请大家别再面子书上在说什么不珍惜生命。

我们不是他， 我们不能够在我们的角度评论任何事情。

尊重， 尊重， 还是尊重。

生命就是如此的脆弱。

节哀顺变。

不议论什么， 只想留给他一个不被评论的空间。

外婆

外婆的去世，带来了好多好多戏剧性的发展。

出殡当天，泪水流个不停。

家里实在发生了太多事情

身为小一辈的我们，不能够说些什么

唯有在这个时候学习看清每个人的性格

知道什么应该做， 什么不应该该做。。。。。

外婆的离去，就好像心里被刀割了一下，心里的血 ，流个不停。

在去世前的几个星期， 外婆都在痛苦中度过

与病魔挣扎， 没办法安安乐乐的享受晚年。

身为孙女的， 没办法是她好过些， 只能够眼巴巴的看着她与病魔挣扎

只能在旁安慰她，告诉她别担心家里的事情。。。。

那种感觉谁能够了解？

还记得小时候，外婆怎样照顾我

还记得小时候，外婆教会我煎鸡蛋

还记得小时候，外婆牵着我的手，带我上学

还记得小时候，外婆抓着我的手教我写生字。。。。

这一切一切， 都还在我的脑海里， 一清二楚。。。。。。。。

很惭愧，在我还没有机会报答外婆之前，外婆已经离我而去

我还能够为她做些什么呢？

我责怪自己没有常常探望外婆

我责怪自己不够细心

我责怪自己没有好好报答外婆

如今这一切已经太迟了。。。。

心里知道外婆最担心的就是舅舅

所以我，一定会好好照顾舅舅，

更加的照顾他的儿子， 明俊， 别让外婆担心。

外婆的离去，唤醒了我， 要更加珍惜身边的每个人

外婆，啊妮对不起您。

我一定会好好看着舅舅和明俊， 您不用担心了。

啊妮永远怀念您。

The last night of CFAB

CFAB has finally come to an end , with the final POT e-exam

(:

and my awesome classmate make a plan to go clubbing after that !

so where to go ?

Mist club @ Bangsar

everyone dressed up nicely

then 2 cars heading down to Mist.

we reached there quite early , around 1030

and we're kind of stoning inside ,

and don-know-what-to-do

then ...the girls came and meet up

around 1 am ,

woohooo ...the club hyped up

of course we'd hyped up =D

Let's the photos do the talking

(:

Pretty Jie Yi

Shih Xuan and Jie Yi

Eugene and Eunice

Shih xuan , Cecilia and Eunice

Liang Bin , Cecilia and Danny

Airil and Eugene

Reuben , Derrick and the girls

and me !

heeheeeee :)

Final

preparing for the final on friday ?????

yup .....oowh ....Not really :s

macam mana ni ????

hahahahahhaaaaa

seriously i have no mood to study for the paper .

before this , our tax lecturer mr simon gave lots of questions for us to do

but my marks scored are deteriorating =(

how how how?

sad case :(

one day left --- thursday

and the bad news is : exam is at 6pm friday !

how cool is that ='(

last class of CFAB

aww...last class of CFAB ended .

now we're waiting for the finals to end as well !

jia you CFAB batch 2 !

we will ace the paper together aite????

:)

hmm ...last class of tax ended with a 1 hour-pork mee

*quoted from carmen low*

heheeee !

yup , super nice port mee at Subang Square ! should go and try it !

well , super funny moments when we're driving to subang and I am the joker .

LOL

alalalaalalaaa , dun la like that ,

I know I'm FUNNY sometimes ! :p

so our class decided to go xxxx this friday !

as our so called "graduation"

@.@

heheee ,

stay tuned !

CFAB

having short classes these days .

what do I mean by short classes ?

well , the super good lecturer mr simon only gave us exercise every class

and we can ciao once we had finished the questions .

nice righttt?

recently my class got a lil bit issue where I dun want to get involve in it .

hope everything is okay .

:)

CFAB gonna end ,

well ,

2moro is the last day of class in CFAB.

what stands for CFAB ?

Certificate in Finance , Accounting and Business .

don't ask me again , kayys ?

one and a half year in CFAB , chilling and mixing around with the CFAB-ers're awesome !

you people are awesome yo !

make me smile all the time , and I think I'm the well-known emo girl in the class .

sorry la peeps ,

I'll try to change myself and let everyone know the crazy Jia Ping , okays ?

I have my non-biological twin - carmen low

I have my sisterss - crys , cecilia , kah mun , jie yi , shih xuan

I have my daddykins and mummykins - eugene and eunice

aww ...

and of course the gentlemen derrick , danny , reuben , hang ee , airil , liang bin etc etc .

Family members are linked forever right ?

please don't leave me alone , thanks .

love y'all

Updates

oh yeah ! pass my mock with a satisfying marks .

*because I din really study much*

thank god !

:)

grandma's condition is still not stable , admitted to ICU for one week dy .

family drama was the painful part , but , I doubt this gonna end .

Aunt get pissed off and decided to fly back to HK .

*who's gonna take car grandma then?*

how ? how ? how ?

Grandma

grandma was admitted to hospital

and isn't a health issue alone

family dramas came in and more complicated problems arose

i'm not in the right position to voice out anything else

sighs

wish everything will be okay .

*******************

grandma , I love you .

you take care of me since I'm 10-month-old .

now you're sick and I couldn't do much except to watch you suffer .

what I can do is to feed you , and to make you feel a lil bit more comfortable

now a tough war between you and the virus and for sure ,

we're at your back , support you all the time .

be tough , grandma , fight the war !

is there any directory to your heart ?

gotta suffer for the next up exam .....thinking skills , gonna screw it only ....

oh , I MISS YOU

I gotta say it out loud loud loud !

if only you can hear it .

yea , I mean it.

Cause I see Sparks fly whenever you smile ?

PT2

alright , miracles happened

where I din study much on this PT

and I scored higher marks ?

dude ? something wrong with the system !

LOL

sighs , I exhausted to handle everything right now =/

things happened without any notifications

this is life .

stay strong .

family needs support from me .