Feelings

It has been a tiring-depressed-exhausted period. 

It's April. 

Anyhow, it feels like a year for me. 

Too many things to take in during the period. 

Life ain't easy when you deal with some kind of people. 

I feel so unsafe being in this environment. 

It is not what I can expect.

I just wish that I can hide hide hide, and cant be found. 

Peaceful life, I'm not having now. 

Hectic life, I'm not supposed to have. 

Stressful life, I've had enough of that. 

So what else I need/I have/I'm supposed to have...

Lost. 

"Be tough. Be strong"

"Hang in there, it will be over"

"Don't fall, don't fear"

What else? 

How many times I have whispered to myself? 

How many times I have teared up inside my blanket?

How many times more I have to repeat this cycle? 

Audit? 

Enjoying it or not? 

........

Will you enjoy working on it in the future? 

........

Are you going to continue this? 

........

Team?

Workload?

Stress?

I seriously have no idea. 

My life is so messed up at this moment. 

Restless ttm.