遗忘

也许不是你，你不会知道


朋友，对我来说， 真的很重要。
我很重视朋友。 所以每一的生日一定会出席。


但是，原来我也会被人遗忘的。
原来我在大家心目中还是那么容易被遗忘掉。


无论是多少年的朋友，还是会发生这样的事情吗?
忙碌的生活，我恨你
但是，我更加憎恨我自己。
原来我把自己看得太重要了。
其实自己一点价值也没有。


被遗忘掉， 伤心吗？
你说对不起，有帮助吗？
那，是一种见证，见证了，原来你们的生活容纳不了我这个闲人。


我伤心，我哭泣，
有谁能明白，
泪水流下是咸的，还是苦的，还是酸的
心里的疼，谁能够感觉到？
唯有自己，默默的承受这一切


谢了，朋友们。
我明白了。


不过你放心，在我心中你们还是我的朋友，
看到照片漂亮时，还会称赞你
看见你伤心时，还会问候安慰你
在你出国时，也会祝你平安，一路顺风，好好照顾自己。


谢了，我的朋友们。

Feelings

Actually I have a lots of thoughts need to blog in 

but somehow when I place my fingers on the keyboard 

all the thoughts have become some feeling and I have no words to describe them 

Always argue with the one I love  

I hate it , I was super angry , and sad , of course , 

the feeling of tearing my heart apart is awful 

Maybe I'm being too sensitive ?

Jealousy is a form of love 

but this is too torturing , aint it ?

I trust him 

but I don't have confidence with myself 

He is the one I speak to everynight before I sleep 

He is the one I first texted him every morning 

He is the one I always cry on the phone , complaining everything 

He doesn't think argue is bad 

I asked , why are us always arguing on all those small matters ?
I don't want this to happen , but why cant we control ourselves ?

and he answered me , I don't mind arguing with you because I know we will be alright after all this.
couples always argue , don't they ?
If they don't , I doubt they are the real couple . 

somehow I am glad that he is so sure that we will be alright after the mess . 

but I still cant take it , arguing is just like hurting me , hurting him , hurting us . 

I hate the pain in my heart 

I hate the tears that flows from my eyes 

I hate it when we say things we don't mean to each others . 

I'm so lost 

crying myself to sleep ? 

well maybe I should stop thinking that much 

Do you think I can ? 

haha ! that's a complete joke . 

because you know I wont . 

Hope everything will be fine 

Rainbow appears only after rain and when there's sunshine

I know we will see the rainbow very soon . 

Updates

Hey how are you ?

Selamat Hari Raya & Happy holiday everyone 

:)

I'm sure people are so busy with their life 

students are preparing for endless assignments and finals 

some went to travel , holiday with family 

and some went back to hometown and reunion with longlost family members 

well , we all have our own lives , it must be somehow meaningful to us :) 

Last week , I sort of arranged for a class gathering

but sadly , it din turn out to be fine

and it was called off at the last minute 

sadness and disappointment filled me up 

well , what to do ? Everyone couldn't make , or it was just a wrong decision for me to set up an event . 

Sighs. 

Should I continue to hold any gathering anymore ? 

Am I being appreciated ?

Or I'm just being redundant ? 

Big Sighsssss !

Holidays

holiday ....holiday....holiday 

I'm so bored

stuck at home everyday 

because the crime rate is effinly high these days 

urghhhh 

okayyy fine 

I miss my friends , high school , collegemates 

why am I feeling absolutely lonely this holiday ? 

cant sleep at night , but sleeping at 5am ? 

oh maybe I should be traveling around Europe countries now *hint* 

ah but I'm here in Malaysia , and I'm supposed to sleep at 12 =.= 

oh god why am I such a freak ? 

okayyyy *smile smile* I'm still healthy =) 

when you cant sleep , things you will do :-

roll on the bed 

on your laptop 

but nothing fresh in the internet 

watch movies ,but I ran out of movies and dramas 

then start reading books (luckily I get novels from Carmen ! ) 

and then you'll start feeling hungry 

then searching for food (and normally end up with cookies)

and when you felt like , finally you feel sleepy 

and there's when you brain start thinking stuffs 

lots of thinking ......... going on in my brain ...... 

This is great , isn't it ? 

sighs , I really need to get back to a normal life 

like what I usually have last time .....

Food , loves

another post with him again ! 

the boy and Mr mickey 

:)

and food ! 

Lunches at Plan B , Paradigm 

a place where I bumped into Ms Tay 

ooopss ! 

HAHA 

Forgot to mention , when we get together , we will never forget bout food . 

More and more delicious food awaiting us ! 

teeheee ! 

Rendezvous Steak Garden , Kg Pandan 

Food here is nice and not that pricey :)

and the boyfriend is peeling prawns for me ! 

heheh ! 

Next stop ! 

Chili's @ Empire 

The atmosphere here is much more better than the one in One U. 

I prefer this much ! 

weee ! I want more foooood ! 

Thank you Mr Teoh ! 

hohoho ! hope I wont gain that much fats ! 

=p 

Yayyyy !

WHEEEEEE ! 

Results' out ! 21th July 2012 00:00 

a memorable moment of me =D 

YESSHHHH I PASSED MY PAPERS ! 

a close call for BS . But , yes I passed ! 

ICAEW Professional Stage - Done ! 

I'm super nervous , shivering when I was checking my results ! 

but after that , that's the moment I have the most excitement , joy , shock and happiness ! 

jumping around and telling my dad I passed my paperssss ! 

I'M BEYOND HAPPINESS RIGHT NOWWWW =D

okok *calm down calm down* 

I would have take this opportunity to present my thank you speech to my lecturers ! 

hehe! 

A great thank you to all my lecturers ,
Mr Jack (BS) , Ms Geetha (FM) , Ms Ruzlena (FR, FA) , Mr Ong (AA) and Mr Simon (TX) . 

I wouldn't have been at this stage without all of them ! 

Appreciate the hard work of all the lecturers and the time as well as their patience they spent on us 

:) 

THANK YOUS ! 

Mad

I dont know why am I so pissy

yes , to him , only him . 

I care 

I mind 

I hate it 

I'm angry

I hope i'm just a nobody 

at least my life would be easier 

at least I wont be contradicting myself 

at least I can take it easy 

but not now 

not exactly what is happening right now

thank you . 

people that makes my life interesting .

E-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g

Hi , I came to blog 

well , was browsing everything I have in the internet 

facebook , twitter , blogger etc 

hmm .... kind of bored , kind of dull , kind of so-my-style 

what will happen when you got nothing to do 

think - dream - and all random thoughts came into my mind 

and i will start thinking and thinking , 

doubting everything around me 

and then , started to feel insecure , 

and then heart beats faster , 

and then feeling cold even only with fan speed 2 

I am weird 

I start to doubt myself in doing everything 

in making decision 

in talking 

in socializing

in spending 

everything  

e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g 

People grow 

People change 

People evolve 

Change or to be changed 

So am I 

I'm tired 

give and take 

this is the limit i can accept 

no more or less 

that's it 

Flaws

I miss my boyfriend so much 

:'( 

and he is not here 

sorry , I always pissed you off 

yet I dont know how to cheer you up . 

I know you were angry and unhappy 

I hope we can really clear things up 

like how we usually did 

love you

 <3

flawed and fragmented , this is how we love each other 

I hope we can fix this , together .

FInal . Taiwan

Tada ! I'm back ! 

Finals overrrrr !

so so god bless me , 

I WANNA PASS BOTH OF MY PAPERS

Business Strategy and Financial Management 

=D 

Final is over , and I flew to Taiwan day after finals .

yes , holiday. trip =)

Taiwan trip was wonderful !

shop . eat . drink . walk . club . shop . eat . drink . walk . sleep ....

yes ! went to Myst and Luxy two days in a roll was terrifying !

I'm sick of clubbing now 

:(

well , Taiwan is really a shopping wonderland

we shopped until we drop !

all money spend most on shopping !

HAHAHAHAHA

hmm here's some photos taken during the trip :)

Luxy !!! 

Hot Spring  - Hell Valley 

Rao he night market !

Hello Kitty Sweet 

:) 

Taipei 101 

Day vs night !!! 

The Notebook

The Notebook 

awesome movie 

:)

Loving Rachel McAdams 

she's so freaking pretty ! 

<3

FINAL

Having final right now 

yes , really FINAL 

after this I wont be a full time student anymore :)

I HAVE TO PASS THESE TWO PAPERS ! 

so tomorrow would be the last paper I will be sitting , Financial Management . 

bless me god :)

kinda struggling when I was doing revision these few days 

things really messed me up and I have no idea how I gonna take them down 

you have no idea how much stress all of us were holding on 

but do we have a choice afterall ?

well , you would know the answer right , don't you ? 

Keep going people , move on , and move on 

no one can stop us , fight for you own future !

super stressed up . 

I wish everything is fine in my way , I wish . 

exhausted , for everything I held on. 

I'm tired . 

no more strength to move on . 

one more day , one more day and I'm free . 

tired of being emotionally exhausted 

really do

and I know this gonna end soon ! 

Pass

where's my study mood ? 

I'm so screwed ! 

mock results were disappointing 

and I wonder I can make it through? 

I have no confidence at all 

why do ICAEW need to be so tough ? 

arghhhh ! 

and I stoned exactly when interviewer asked me :- 

hmm .. what's your aim in your studies ? 

As I can see your results from spm , cfab and icaew.... 

and all I want is a PASS now 

I'm so so screwed when I answered that .

but that's exactly what I need to get through . 

hope all is well 

stay tough , stay strong , Winn. 

June

Hello everyone ! 

It's 1st of June . 

2 more weeks and I will be free .

yes , work harder , 

pumping more in 

='(

went for an interview in EY , again. 

and this time is for my training contract . 

outfit of the day 

:)

hope everything goes well 

good luck Jia Ping . 

You will be fine ! 

Updates

Kinda emo-ish these few days 

final is freaking near , is only 2 weeks from now 

but I still cant pass my mock examssss ? 

SCREWED ! 

things dont go as smooth as it used to be 

I'm afraid 

Hopeless 

Restless 

how I gonna get through all this ? 

well , I will be having an interview with ey my future employer this friday . 

wish me luck people ! 

I really need a lot of luck ! 

#pray for eveything 

was so stressed up recently ? 

the maximum level I could managed , not more than this . 

Pleaseeeeeeeeeee 

*deep breathe* 

I gonna get you down , BS and FM . 

Mickeyyy :)

Day out with the boyfriend at midvalley

 :)

mickeyyy !!!

ICAEW FTW

16.5.2012 

Last day of FM class 

so Kah Mun decided to bring her Cammy 

and take memorable photos before everyone went off to work 

:(

aww , we're gonna miss each other like crazy after this 

and Carmen brought the slideshow 

the journey from CFAB to ICAEW 

had fun watching the video 

nostalgia  

time flies 

pictures captured the precious moments , the laughs , the craziest moment of us 

- flour , cream , mayonnaise - 

you know we are the crazy bunch ! 

the funniest people I've ever met 

=D 

Started CFAB with Ms Geetha , and now ending with Ms Geetha too. 

a cycle 

a complete one 

:)

ICAEW FTW !!!

5201314

Hello everyone ! 

It's 20 May 2012 

5.20.13:14 

tada 

this is how sweet the boyf is 

<3 

  

I'm always a happy girl with you 

Happy 520 everyone ! 

xoxo 

<3

I'm all good

With all the bad feelings before this , 

I'm all good now . 

I'm over it 

:)

thanks to the boyfriend , also my classmates , and my close friends . 

thank you everyone who support me , and listen to me , 

and trying to understand what my feeling is . 

It was really a tough one to tell it out , 

  the weird feeling I had

thank you hyuin and zqian for spending the time with me 

:)

I know what I should do and to live on my own , 

with the loved one 

with all my lovely friends 

who supports me no matter how 

who never ever give up on me 

thank youuuuu !!!

Everything is over when you came back to me . 

you never fails to make me smile , even with my tears on 

you never fails to make me laugh although those are lame jokes . 

thank you 

I appreciate it <3

I miss you like crazy , gal.