- Life Goes On -

060112 (2)

2012-01-25T00:49:00.004+08:00

The night plan --- Huey Yuin and the gang !

doorbell rangs , with little cute lady ms Tay standing in front of my house ,

saying wanna pass me my clothes .

okayyy ......

then I saw LEGSSSSS !

(because their faces are blocked by treeesss )

and a lighted bday cake holding by herng

and the others were standing around , singing bday songs !

what a surpriseeee !

thanks guys , really surprising .

so they bumped into my house and terrorised my house .

haha !

yayy , edited group photosss !

Thanks for coming guys , you guys made my day :

kangzi , khanglun , kangthai , huey yuin , jack , herng , and liangbin

so we skyped the lonely guy at London !

Winkeeeeeee !

aww , miss him so much !

see the culprit smiling at the laptop

and we took the so called group photo !

tada ! isn't this CREATIVEEEE ?

HAHHAHAHAHA !

had a long hours chat with him .

tempting him with all the malaysian food !

yuuuummyyliiiiicioousss right ?

haha !!!

see his miserable faceeeeee

oh , we had fun capturing his faceeee !

and they left my house at about 2 am =)

Thank you everyone !

my 20th birthday will be a normal day without all of you !

biggest huggsssss from me !

060112 (1)

2012-01-25T00:15:00.002+08:00

Weeeeee^^V

awesome classmates planned a birthday celebration for me at Redbox Sunway Pyramid !

pichassss !!

Birthday Celebration @ Redbox Sunway Pyramid

let's see my cake for the year 2012

Pikachu saying : Happy Birthday Winnie the Pooh

yeah , that's me ! ^^V

2 candles ended my teenage life

I'm now officially 20 years old !

The girlssss > Crys , Celia , and Carmen ,

and not-in-the-pic KahMun =D

Thank you for planning and buying the cakeee !

tada ~ Danny !

One of the planner according to Carmen .

Thanks danny !

I'd appreciate it

=))

Airil !

who is the joker for the day !

singing korean songs huh !

made me laugh my lungs out !

he is definitely a good singer , perhaps.

Love my classmatess

那些年，我們一起追的女孩

2012-01-17T02:34:00.007+08:00

回忆录

一場名為青春的潮水淹沒了我們。

浪退時，渾身濕透的我們一起坐在沙灘上，

看著我們最喜愛的女孩子用力揮舞雙手，

幸福踏向人生的另一端。

下一次浪來，會帶走女孩留在沙灘上的美好足跡。

但我們還在。

刻在我們心中的女孩模樣，也還會在。

豪情不減，嘻笑當年。

座位前，座位後。

男孩衣服背上開始出現藍色墨點。

一回頭，女孩的笑顏，讓男孩魂縈夢系了八年，羈絆了一生。

婚禮音樂響起，

沈佳宜穿著白紗走進來的那一刻，

整個戲院凝結了

她真的好漂亮。。。。 <3

A Thousand Years

2012-01-17T02:13:00.004+08:00

生日快乐！

2012-01-17T00:48:00.003+08:00

谦，这是给你的

每年的生日我都会写一篇给你，今年也不例外～

很开心，终于有人和我同年了！

呵呵！

好啦～

吹熄两根蜡烛的感觉，是不是很不一样？

那种，不知道怎么形容的感觉，很感触吧？

谦，

谢谢你，成为我的知己朋友有大概10年了耶！

为我们的友谊干杯！

*cheeerrrssss*

说真的，认识到你们，也是我的幸运

一班不会批评自己的朋友，

会和你一起疯狂流泪的朋友，

有什么事都会挺自己，

怎么不得空的都会说一句“我精神上支持你”

这些朋友那里找啊？

你算是和我经历过蛮多的朋友了

是一个能够明白我心里想什么，担心什么的朋友。

在别人都说是我自己想太多的时候，

只有你告诉我，并不是我杯弓蛇影，并不是我想的过多。

有时候只有短短几个字，

都能够触碰到我内心隐藏的一面

谦，谢谢你出现在我生活里。

20岁的人生，是我们最璀璨的时刻！

好好的享受2012 年20岁的青春吧！

绘写你我精彩的人生，

让自己的每一天都在心情日记里挂上个笑脸 :)

生日快乐，我魔羯座的朋友！

给你的

2012-01-13T01:58:00.003+08:00

这几天的晚上，都好难过

失眠，睡不到

很累，脑袋开始在想

一而再，再而三的想

到底自己的决定是对还是错

我还记得那时候我朋友说过一句话，

我听了眼泪就快要流出来了

他说：“你们女生真的是，没有想过自己做的事情对对方带来什么后果。

你知道吗，你男朋友在外国的时候，

每天都在倒数着回来见你的日子，现在他回来了，你竟然。。。 ”

我知道我真的很自私，我很后悔为什么我可以对你那么残忍

你所承受的伤害，是因我而起

对于很多人来说，

我们的分开始没有必要的，

大家对于我提出分手都觉得很愕然，

自己也觉得很不可思议

我自认自己的忍耐力还蛮高的，

为什么这次，

就是这次我竟然把事情给弄砸了

我曾经怀疑过，

是不是自己更本没有喜欢过你，

是不是自己更本就是在利用感情，

是不是因为自己不懂得珍惜你，

是不是因为你爱我多过我爱你，

是不是一切都是错误，更本就不需要跨过那朋友的界限，

是不是从开始到现在都是错觉，

是不是一切都是我引起的等等。。。

想了好多好多，

不想在进一步的想，

深怕看见事实是的真相，

而再次被伤害的更深

我不想和朋友们解释，

因为我在也承受不了别人的眼光

那种觉得我在玩弄感情的眼光

好累，好累。。。

那天，在 bbq gathering 的时候，

朋友们兴致勃勃的说要玩 truth or dare 。。。

大家都静了下来。。。

而你，说了一句：“就有些问题不要问啦。。。”

顿时我的心寒了一下，

我知道。。。我面对不了。。。而决定提早回家。

原来我没有勇气面对自己做的决定，是因为我内疚吗？

子谦对我说过那么一句

“身为你的朋友，看见你这样，而我们帮不了什么，其实也很难过”

“但是我们不会问，不会说，我们只是等着你告诉我们，如果你选择不说，我们不会逼你。 ”

谦，谢谢你，那短短的路程，

你说了几句话，让我觉得，

原来我身边的你们，有曾经为我着想。

你说，“有时候，那个朋友的界限是真的要超越，不然双方都很辛苦，”

“ 超越了，发现在不适合，也没关系。 ”

其实有谁能够真正明白当事人的感受是什么，

而每个人只能够用自己的经验自己所承受过的来安慰其他人

为恒知道了过后，还蛮惊讶的。

除夕夜，他对我说了这么一句话，

“每一段感情都是一段经历，我们一定会在某一段感情里学会到某些事情，

无论怎么伤，怎么痛都好，都要让自己好起来，

然后在开始另一段感情。不要畏惧在被伤害，

因为只要肯踏出第一步，怎么都比原地踏步好。 ”

从开学以来，我都已开心的面孔见大家，

在大家面前，我康复了，没事了。

我真的觉得我没事了，其实你对我来说，还是一位好朋友。

其实我可以就这样压抑着自己的感觉，继续开开心心的生活下去

我相信，久而久之，我的伪装能够正真的把我自己也给蒙骗，忘掉那个不开心的我。

直到那天和她谈天，她问我，你们分手的原因。

为什么问我呢？

为什么她不问你呢？

我不知道

但是我坦白的把我知道的告诉她。

我不知道为什么她会在这个时候问我这个问题，

难道你没有告诉过她吗？

你们之间的问题从来不曾测地解决过？

身为你的朋友，我看的出其实她还很关心你，很在意你的一举一动。

你知道那时候你提出分手的时候，她有多难过吗？

为什么你没有给她一个补偿的机会呢？

为什么你总是觉得你的想法是对的？

你做了一个决定，令到她伤心，你不好过，有必要吗？

和她谈天的那个晚上，我知道了她的想法，也知道了一些可能你不知道的事情。

是你把她推给别人的，而伤害了自己，伤害了她。

我问她，当她知道我们的事情时，是否会有点尴尬。

她觉得她和我都很尴尬。

我们真的不知道为什么会这样，

但是就是有那个感觉，

感觉是欺骗不了自己的。

我们都过不了彼此的眼光。

可是值得高兴的是，

她说她现在过得很好，很开心。

其他的不再重要了。

其实她真的是很简单的一个女孩，

你在面子书add她，她已经很开心了，

她说，“嘉恒应该已经接受我为朋友了，所以还好啦，没事了。”

你到底会不会读到这篇，我不知道

但是好好的处理你的思绪吧。。。。

有时候你觉得对的事情，其实你已经在伤害到对方而你不知道

我衷心的希望你能够好好的解决你和她之间的事情。

不要轻易的决定任何事情

因为你这一刻的决定，不代表你以后不会改变你的想法

你是普通人而已，为什么要约束自己，为什么要那么执着自己说过的话？

还有几天就要去印度了，

好好照顾自己吧

知道你会很辛苦，不要给自己那么大压力

休息，深呼吸，你还是要继续走下去。

对不起，

我面对不了你，

也面对不了我自己。

I care

2012-01-12T00:45:00.002+08:00

I care

that's why I'm here blogging

I care

that's why I always being the one who have problems

I care

that's why I can feel her feelings

I care

that's why I can know the inside feeling

I care

that's why you don't know how to comfort me

I care

that's why you worried

I care

because I am being myself

I care

and that's the reason I'm hurt

The unpredictable

2012-01-12T00:25:00.003+08:00

That night , the questions that she asked me , I'm shocked

I couldn't figure what am I feeling but I know the feeling is not right

I told the truth

and she accepted what I told her

is this good to her ?

It was unpredictable when she told me she has the same awkward feelings

I thought all this time I'm the only one who thinks a lot ,

but now I realised , actually it wasn't what I see

I wonder there're still more and more that I don't know ?

Did I do the right thing to ask for breakup ?

Did I do the right thing when I answer her questions ?

I'm sorry

I just couldn't move on

I'm stuck here =(

Hi 2012

2012-01-12T00:11:00.003+08:00

girls are unpredictable , do you agree ?

yesterday I was happy ,

the day before yesterday I'm hyper ,

but doesn't mean that today I will be okay .

I'm not

Emo attack

I'm glad that I smiled , I laughed when I first met my classmate when class started

first day of college for the year 2012 is like the day where everything change

yet we remain as classmate , the close one

I have no words to describe the bond between us

but we will always be there when someone need us

and this is the starting 3rd year of college life in Sunway

and carmen low the sista sit beside me for 2 yearsss !

woohooo ~~~

carmen , I love you so much .

You're always there to listen to me when I need you :)

p/s This gonna be the 1st random post of 2012 haha !

2012-01-10T23:54:00.003+08:00

smile

我想（4）

2012-01-10T01:38:00.004+08:00

曾经我对我以为朋友说过这句话，

“只要肯停下脚步，望望四周围的风景，可能你就知道你接下来应该怎么走了。。。”

其实说出这句话的时候，并没有什么特别的意思，

但是在我和另一位朋友说同一番话的时候，突然有另一种感觉。

嗯，怎么说呢？

有时人会为了达到某个目标，而忽略了其他的事情。

为了一些事情，忽略了身边的人的感受。

在工作的朋友，得空的时候，记得拨电话回家问候家里等待着你电话的父母

在忙着自己繁忙生活的朋友，记得问候下身边担忧关心着你的另一伴

有时候说话，要小心，要顾虑到别人的感受，

说者无意，但是听者有意。。。

在我们的生活当中，难免有好多另你不开心的事情，有很多不如意的事情

但是在发自己脾气之前，看看身边的每个人，

有谁是没有问题的？

有谁是真的能够嘻嘻哈哈的过日的？

相比之下，自己的问题，其实不算是什么，对吗？

看看在医院里的病人，与病魔抗抖的精神

看看在氧气箱你的婴孩，为了迎接来到这个新世界，而努力的学习呼吸

看看在深切治疗部躺在床上，靠着仪器来延续生命，努力的为自己接下来的日子奋斗

他们的毅力是否值得我们去学习呢？

我们有时会埋怨，“为什么是我，为什么会发生这样的事情？”

但是想想，如果不是因为这些不愉快的事情，你会成长吗？

人生就像是在玩磐石运动，还是爬山

在还没到达顶峰的路程，

很辛苦，很累，受伤了，被细菌感染等等

这个阶段就是我们努力奋斗的阶段

努力赚钱，努力读书考试，努力工作，面对生活压力

也许一个不小心，

我们从山腰一滑，滑跌到山脚，

要重新来过，已经不想要在经历过之前经历的事情，放弃了

但是你觉得值得吗？

不值得，

我熬了那么多苦，

为什么不让我欣赏顶峰的风景呢？

我们不服气。

对，人生就是不停的战斗，

战胜生活，战胜自己。

有时候你听到别人对你的评语，别人的意见，

你不能够接受，为什么呢？

就好比也许他在说这句话的时候，他已经到达了山顶，

而他感受过的，你没有经历过，而你自己还处身于山腰。

我们没有权利去争议到底什么是对，什么是错，

但是我们应该尝试去接受，了解和明白他们的出发点。

记住每个人说过的话，也许到了同样的阶层，你也会说同样的一句话。

每个人的出现，都有他的意义，

不要说什么“希望我们重来没有认识过对方”之类的话语，

因为那代表着你的不成熟。

成熟与不成熟，不由得别人来评论，只在与自己有多少能够放开。

我想（3）

2012-01-05T23:36:00.002+08:00

曾经有听过这么一个说法，

一对情侣在一起的时候，起步点是一样的

当然大家的速度会不一样，有时你快他慢

有时候，你累了，休息，而他继续前进

虽然大家的速度都不一样，但是终点都是一致的

就是为对方，为自己创造未来，建立自己的家庭

但是当其中一位的方向有稍微偏移的时候

他们的距离就会越来越大，越来越远

中途各自为各自的理想拼搏，并没有得到协议

大家的终点就会开始转变了。

就好比一棵树

在种植的时候，是同一颗种子

但是树苗成长的时候，就会有分歧，也就是树枝

每根树枝都有自己的生长方向，都会朝着阳光的方向生长

而引此，两根树枝的距离就会越来越远，

甚至各自开花结果。

其实人与人之间的相处，坦诚相待，把心底的话都说出来是最好的。

没有人能够测地知道你心里想打是什么

没有人知道你脑海里想的是什么

不要以为了解你的人，什么都懂

要一个你爱的人，和爱你的人24小时都在猜你心里的那一套，

未免对他残忍了一点吧？

两个人的问题，就让两个人一起去解决，

这是我一位好朋友告诉我的话

可能我要好好的了解这句话的意义。

好好的对待你的另一半吧～

让他们知道原来他在你心里是有一定的地位的。

人海中，要遇到一个你有感觉而他也有感觉的人很容易；

但是要遇见一个你爱的人，而他也爱你的，并不容易；

要遇见一个你珍惜，而他也珍惜你的人，更加不简单；

要遇见一个能够包容你一切的人，那就是你要找的人，好好的把握他吧～

=')

我想（2）

2012-01-05T22:55:00.002+08:00

坚强，

每个人都不一样的

有的人对自己所面对的事情，都有能力一一解决

为自己设下一到很强很高的围墙，就是不让自己跌倒，对自己信心很高

可是想想，如果重来都没有跌过，伤过，

万一，一个不小心海啸来袭，围墙都抵挡不住的时候，会怎样？

可能你就这样被海啸个吞噬了，一跌就起不来，会发生吗？

越坚强的人，可能就是内心地下最脆弱的

一次又一次的打击，会让他越伤越深，

没办法接受为什么自己一向来的坚强突然会如此的脆弱

承担不了那压力，可能最终会选择终止了自己的生命

反之，

如果你是一个不是那么坚强，比较脆弱的人

自己没有去设一道防墙，每次困难来临，虽然都难道了你

但是因为没有那道墙，

你得到了别人的帮助，

一次又一次的重困难中爬起

伤痕累累，

一道又一道的伤痕成为了你内心里不为人知的一股力量 --- 毅力

虽然困难一关比一关的复杂，

就是这股毅力，让你一次又一次的越过障碍物

慢慢的把自己锻炼成为一个能够撑的上坚强的人。

身边朋友对你，这个坚强的人，

有一定的信任，有一定的期望

也许你还可以掩饰自己内心的不开心，自己内心的内疚，挫败感

在朋友前还可以嘻嘻哈哈，因为你完全没有表露出来

你觉得，没有那个必要让身边的人担心你，

你觉得，这是自己的问题，自己有能够能够解决

一箩又一箩的问题都自己扛上肩上，朋友们相信你能够办到，

甚至你自己也相信自己能够处理好

事实是，你已经没有哪个能力了，有心无力了，还能够怎么样？

情绪病会因此慢慢的潜伏在你体内，

如果不及早发现，

就会演变成所谓的忧郁症。

每个人都有自己迷糊的时候，都有自己挫败的时刻

为什么不让身边的人来帮助自己？

为什么不让你自己去认识自己有问题？

为什么身为他的朋友，

你竟然没有好好的了解他到底是出自于心底的开心，还是表面的伪装？

逃避，

以前的我也许很不认同是一个能够解决问题的方法

但是现在的我，

也许已经承认逃避也是我会做的事情

有时候，你已经不想在面对了，

也没有那个必要明白了解，

一走了之，能够解开暂时的痛吧～

但是无论你走的多远，逃避也只可以让你暂时放下，

却不能够让你解开心里的结

是好是坏，因人而异。

有人会觉得，不再触碰那伤口，就让他结疤是最好的。

那疤痕就象征的我们的经历，让我们在缅怀的时候，

至少还有一道疤痕让自己回忆起当年发生的事情。

有人会觉得，不彻底清理伤口，会出脓，发炎，结疤；

为什么不消毒，涂药，让它正真的愈合。

问题就好象肿瘤一样，一天不切除，不代表肿瘤不会转变成恶性肿瘤。

但是如果是良性肿瘤，为什么要多此一举把它切除。

那争议性仍然存在。

我想（1）

2012-01-05T22:20:00.005+08:00

假期里，我看了一部电视剧，

一部我很喜欢的电视剧，妙手仁心III 。

应该很多人都看过，

但是这次再重看的感觉很不一样。

其实人生就是这样，虽然是在重负做同一样事情，

但是在不一样的年龄，会有不一样的生活体验

在这部戏当中，我学了好多人生的道理

一些以前我不会明白的人生道理

虽然说20的小孩子还不懂得什么是真正的苦，

但是我觉得是时候要让自己去学会体验，

学会承担生活中的甘与甜。

请问有多少人吃苦瓜的？

我本身不喜欢吃苦瓜，因为我觉得很苦，你呢？

戏里有一句话说，苦瓜，也叫“半世瓜” ，

原因是因为有很多人前半世不吃苦瓜，但是后半世就不再挑剔而吃苦瓜了。

前半世，我们还没有经历过什么比苦瓜还要苦的事情，所以我们觉得苦瓜很苦

后来，当我们慢慢的经过生活的磨练，正真明白什么是辛苦，

痛苦的时候，觉得其实苦瓜并不是那么的苦，所以就吃苦瓜了。

虽然这个说法不是什么名言谚语，但是我觉得它有它的道理，它有它的意思。

这个假期，我用了很多时间去想，好好的想了自己的问题。

有时候，人总会很自然的把自己的问题给放大几十百万倍，

把自己面前的障碍物变成了一个很复杂的迷宫。。。

其实想想，有那个必要吗？

每个人都有自己的问题，

但是为什么我们偏偏要把自己的问题放大，为难自己，为难你身边的人？

只要好好的面对，慢慢的解决，越过障碍，就可以继续走你要走的路了。

为什么要为难自己走出那个没有必要的迷宫呢？

当我们在很着重的看待一样事物的时候，往往我们忽略了身边别的事情。

只要退一步，我们就可以看到更清楚的画面，更辽阔的视野，不好吗？

其实每个人背后都有过一段没有人能够明白了解的故事

可能今天你看到的他是一个很开心很乐观的人，

但是有谁知道他开心底下是悲痛的？

可能今天你看见的他是一个滔滔不绝，笑话连篇的开心果，

但是有谁会知道要他来到这一个阶段，他经历了多少，他用了多少时间。

每个人背后都有自己的问题，

经济，功课，家庭，健康，工作，伴侣，朋友。。。。

也许对于你来说，其实他的问题不大，

是因为你放大了自己的问题，而小看了别人的痛楚。

其实每个人心底都会有一片不为人知的故事，只是他选择不让我们看见罢了。

2012 is here !

2012-01-05T22:14:00.003+08:00

It's 2012 !

another year has gone and here comes 2012 , the new year !

Happy New Year everyone !

Wishing everyone of you a very very great year ahead !

=))

New year

New Start

New hope

New resolutions

New Life

2012

stay strong .

2011年苦中甜

2011-12-29T17:10:00.003+08:00

2011 年，其实也是很不错的一年，经历了不少人生经验

不是什么发生很很多有有意思的事情还是自己亲身体验了不一样的生活

年初，带着一颗不知道什么是做工的心，

体验到了工作的辛苦，

也体验到工作的积极，

也体验到了与同事们一起拼搏努力的时光，

种种的工作压力是在优势很难承受，

但是当大家都完成手头上的工作时，顿时都会觉得一切都值得的。

再次回到了学院上课，感觉上朋友之间都成长了不少

大家都有自己的想法和处理事情的方式，

我们成为了一班很有主见的学生，

相信我们的主管也觉得不是一班容易处理的学生，

原因是当我们觉得不合理的事情，我们都会说出来，

虽然可能外人会觉得这是一群很麻烦的学生，

但是对我们来时，每一次的麻烦，

大家都很团结的，其实也不错嘛！

年中的时候，我失去了两位亲人，

接着在得知朋友的弟弟不幸的事故，

自己对这一系列的发生的事情一时处理不及，受到了打击。

生命，可以如此的脆弱，一个不小心，

没好好处理自己的情绪，就可以把生命给弄丢了。。。

生命，对于一些熬过病魔的人，是如此的坚强，

在于病魔对峙的时刻，他们意志力坚强，一次又一次的战胜了病魔，

虽然到最后，病人输给了病魔，但是相信他们的意志力已经值得让大家敬佩。

在那个时刻，顿时觉得人生很奇妙，

自己更本不知道自己明天会发生什么事，也

不知道身边的人随时会发生什么事，

所以认真的对待身边的每一个人，

爱护他们，爱护自己。

爱，要表示出来，珍惜身边的每个人。

年终的假期，和一班好朋友去旅行，平平无奇的度过了

大家的友谊没有比去年的差，大家对彼此的信任也增加了。

很开心的旅程，抛开了生活上的压力，

面对着朋友们，什么不开心的事情都抛诸脑后，没烦恼的，很轻松很自在

能够认识这一群好朋友，是我的荣幸啊！

由于有两位好朋友都在出国留学，所以大家特别珍惜能够融在一起的时刻

特别plan了好多活动，就是想要在他们出国前留下更多的回忆。

希望这一切都能够永远的储存在大家的脑海里，彼此联系这大家。

假期过了，收拾心情回去上课，迈向课程的第二阶段，

当然上课压力不一样了，考试方式也不一样了

顿时，自己承受的压力是不知怎么想外人倾诉，因为就只有自己和同班同学才能够了解

教授竟然全我们放弃这个课程，什么回事啊？

大家加油努力吧！

我们还有半年罢了，就要正式进入工作的世界了。

2011 年，说是很精彩。

过程中的的甜酸苦辣，只有当事人能够明白

到底自己品尝着的是甜还是苦。

你的是哪个？

苦中带甜的，我珍惜。

没有什么重要的

2011-12-29T04:16:00.004+08:00

这个3个星期的假期

我觉得自己过得好累

比我去上课的时候还更累

可是

3个星期也不足以让我自己收拾好自己的心情

从受伤，洗伤口，涂药，在包扎伤口，然后慢慢的等它康复

其实3个星期对我来说，很明显的是不足够的

3个星期的尾声，

这个晚上，我还是睡不着

失眠，已经不是什么很辛苦的事情了

已经习惯了看着天亮了，才睡那几个小时

一天的时间，就是呆在电脑前面，电视机前面，不停的麻醉自己

不让自己的脑袋有一点点空白的时候

很矛盾

假期要完了

但是我却不想回到原有的生活

好想自己再懒惰，再颓废一段日子

真的很想很想有一段真正能够休息的时间，

而不是拥有一段能够让自己麻醉的时期

在这个年尾假期，我想了好多好多2011年发生的事情

从我去实习，然后怎么去面对工作，

然后回到校园，面对自己同学，

继续上课、享受当学生的生活，

迈入课程的第2阶段，，面对不一样的考试压力，认识新同学，

开始一段新的恋情，明白什么是远距离恋爱，

然后提出了分手，单独度过了假期。。。。

突然3个星期好长，好累

突然觉得，为什么这个假期好孤独，很孤单

为什么我会做出了这个决定

为什么自己不能够好好处理自己的情绪

想要找个朋友出来，但是翻翻电话里的联络页，原来我不知道自己可以联络谁

原来我要找一个人来陪陪自己也好难

那好吧，学会自己承担这种结果

是不是时候要好好的反省自己呢？

顿时我不懂得与人沟通

顿时我觉得说话好难

顿时我觉得我不知道该怎么面对我的朋友

顿时我不知道自己可以怎么样

一个简单的笑脸，

其实只是代表说，我很好

还是，我很开心

还是，没什么的

还是，无言了

还是，我不想说

明白你的人，会知道其实你不想说了

懂你的人，会逼你说出你不想说的话

不知道的人，会意一个笑脸回你

而关心你的人，会说没事的，事情会过去的

其实，当我自己都不知道自己想要怎么样的时候，

你告诉我，“事情会过去的”，有意思吗？

你告诉我，“就跟着自己的心走吧，自己想怎么样就怎么样”

还是，“其实我相信你已经有一个想法了，就做吧，我会支持你的。”

虽然这些都是关心、爱你的朋友会说的话，但是有多少个字能够真正的弥补了你伤口痛？

很谢谢大家都我说过的话，我都很感谢，

大家在我软弱的时候，用了一些字语来安慰我，

只有你们才会发现到我的不妥。。。

谢谢大家

“明天会更好”，

不断地给自己希望，也就是在鼓励自己迈向失望，

可耻吗？

但是如果不给自己希望，

又怎么能够让自己发奋，

然后品尝成功的甜头呢？

谁会真正在意最后是成功还是失望，

希望实践了还是失望到来了，

关心、爱你、疼你的，都会在意过程中你成长了多少，

重要的是你跌到了，

有多少次时家人朋友一起扶你起身的，

有多少人曾经和你并肩作战，

又有多少次试自己重新站起来的。。。。

加油吧，小孩子。

没什么重要的一篇，早安了，各位。

2011-12-27T01:53:00.002+08:00

why do I feel extraordinary lonely during this holiday

I need someone who can cheer me up

but no one is beside me when I need someone

I need you

anyone of you

I dun wanna beg anyone

to find someone to hang out with me is a problem

why ?

time to reflect myself

Merry Christmas

2011-12-24T15:48:00.005+08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone

Hold the one you love with you tonight

love them , hug them tight ,

and tell them how much you love them

Confused

2011-12-23T04:16:00.003+08:00

I miss him , I still miss him

I though I could move on

but today I browsed the profile

and everything came back

I cant forget what he said

yet I have my grounds to bu

how I wish everything wasn't started

and we're still missing each others as close friends ,like how we did last time

the truth is I still miss him

#confused

I shall make myself clear , have to .

2011-12-22T15:05:00.003+08:00

Get distracted pretty well the day before today

movie ,singk ,dinner with friends...

I thought I could really move on

but well

woke up on a rainny day

browsing fb page with all the LOVE QUOTES shared by someone

is just like stabbing myself with a knife to my heart

that's hurt .

还是一样的12月

2011-12-20T04:00:00.003+08:00

原来大哭了一场，会比较好点
原来一路以来压抑着自己，就好像自己欺骗自己
每次当自己撑不住了，深深地吸了一口气，
然后继续生活，继续走原本的路
原来这一切都是在假装坚强
其实更本一点都不坚强

不去打开自己的心，
不去面对问题，
不去面对自己，
不代表问题不在
假装没事，
其实不代表真的可以瞒天过海

逃避，只是在欺骗自己没有问题
逃避，就好像麻醉了一样，没知觉了
当麻醉药过了，就是时候要承受那种痛
最后还是一样。。伤口还在。
伤口需要时间慢慢愈合，就好像我们的伤口那样，
就只有时间能够帮助到你、我

我累了
整个假期都好累、好累

我好想就一直睡一直睡。。。
不用醒来，就不用面对人。。。。

我真的很希望痛痛快快哭了，就会没事
但是我知道我并不会那么快就没事了

朋友问我，为什么那么伤心？
我说，因为没有人能够了解我的感受
你不了解，他不了解，所有人都不了解
我自己也不能彻底了解
相隔了两年，也是12月，还是一样痛得12月，
只是这次比上次的痛多了一份内疚。。。

我对你承诺的话，我记得。

I wish I have someone to cry on

2011-12-20T01:22:00.000+08:00

人海中遇見你

2011-12-19T03:27:00.005+08:00

你的愛值得信賴你的心靠在身邊

只要你在我就有許多夢想只要你在我就有更多力量

親愛的我多麼幸運人海中能夠遇見你

親愛的我多麼盼望就從這一刻起和你分享所有感覺

親愛的我多麼幸運人海中能夠遇見你

親愛的我多麼盼望就從這一刻起和你分享真心的感覺

你的愛沒有保留你的心獻給了我只要你在我就有更多理想

與你同在就好像擁抱天堂

親愛的我多麼幸運人海中能夠遇見你親愛的我多麼盼望

每一天在這裡永遠永遠有家的感覺

親愛的我多麼幸運人海中能夠遇見你

親愛的我多麼盼望每一天在這裡永遠永遠有家的感覺

你的愛沒有保留你的心獻給了我只要你在我就有更多理想

與你同在就好像擁抱天堂

親愛的我多麼幸運人海中能夠遇見你

親愛的我多麼盼望每一天在這裡永遠永遠有家的感覺

親愛的我多麼幸運人海中能夠遇見你

親愛的我多麼盼望每一天在這裡和你分享家的感覺

我怎么办？

2011-12-19T02:12:00.003+08:00

我累了
我真的不知道该怎么办

你说呢？
朋友都问我，还好吗？
我说，还好吧

我还能够说什么呢？
可是我真的不知道该怎么面对人

我在家里
就是每天都躲在家里
很累
很累
很辛苦
我很希望我能够出去看看朋友、和朋友们逛逛街
但是我不知道可以找谁

很辛苦
到底我的决定是对的还是错的
到底我该怎么办？
我该怎么办啊？

我无路可退了

这是一个很长的假期
从上课，考试，到假期
我的压力还在，不断的增加，不曾减少

谁能够告诉我，我能够怎么办？

心痛了

2011-12-19T00:38:00.007+08:00

我挽留不了你
一个决定，我失去了男朋友，也失去了好朋友

我从来不知道原来伤的不只是你，原来我也很伤的
你知道我失眠了多少个晚上吗？
你知道我更本睡不下
你知道我有这个决定我也不想的
你知道我有多辛苦吗？

我很想这一切一切都不曾发生过
我很希望我们重来没有开始过
至少，我们还是朋友
至少，我还有一个我可以依靠的朋友
至少，我还有一个可以让我依靠的肩膀
至少，我还有一个会想念我的朋友

现在，我什么都没有了
一无所有
你觉得我会好过吗？

你说你不想见到我
你要我给你一年时间
我只能够说，好吧

是我犯下的错，就要承受后果
我必须承担所有的一切

我尝试要你留下，我们继续当朋友
可惜，我改变不了你

原来到最后，事情会发生到这个地步
坐在电脑前面，我不知道该怎么办
那一刻，我恨你，我恨你
这一刻，我恨我自己

你说的对，我还没有准备好，为什么要开始
我自己也不知道原来我承受不了那个压力啊
我也很难受的
我也不只知道原来我高估了自己
你知道多少？

或许在爱情的世界里，我也是一个小孩子
或许，我还很在意她对你的影响
或许，我妒忌
或许，我更本不应该出现
或许，我更本不需要认识你

心痛的感觉，谁能够了解
提出分手的那个，并不代表她不会伤心
也许你需要做的，只是需要接受和了解
但是提出的那一方，她用了多大勇气来放弃这段感情
她用了多少的时间去想，去想办法解决
她用了多少心思去想如何面对你，面对其他人，面对她的朋友
她需要用多少的时间才能够弥补会她心里的痛？

哭了，又怎样？
心里的疼还在。。。
又有谁能够了解？

I'm tireeee

2011-12-18T02:05:00.005+08:00

I'm speechless

but the feelings of pain hurts myself

hope everything will be fine

I'm trying to make myself to get better day by day

seems like it doesn't work

I have no ways out

I'm tireee

I need a break

A deep breathe cant hold the tears

A mirror reflects my terrible face with dark circles on it

I wonder could I get back to the hyper me and back on the track by Jan

How am I going to get over this ?

I don't know

God Bless .

we're just like fireworks , it doesn't last long

就这样

2011-12-16T23:59:00.004+08:00

部落格删除掉了。

就这样结束了

鼻子抽了一会儿

眼泪就涌出来了

深深的吸了一口气

把情绪平复下来

还以为自己没事

原来还是老样子

你说，我敢爱敢恨

我觉得，我根本就没有资格爱

如果不是因为自己过不了自己

事情绝不会发生至此

这个假期

是最不开心的假期

连笑容都要伪装的

还称的上是笑容吗？

That's it

2011-12-16T21:50:00.002+08:00

You deleted it .

I can see the intention of you doing it .

I viewed it the last time of all the posts and I respect your decisions .

I hope you're okay .

I want you to be okay .

I want a smile from you , this is all I want from you .

谢谢你喜欢我

2011-12-15T02:46:00.009+08:00

一个男孩，不管距离有多远，告白了。

那个女孩，接受了，送给了他生日最美好的礼物。

而现在，女孩竟然要把礼物给砸碎，残忍吗？

对不起，对不起。

如果她知道会有这样的后果，她更本不会接受。

给了一个美好的希望，现在竟然要亲自把希望摧毁，你觉得她不心疼吗？

女孩心里纠缠了很久很久，不断的告诉自己，

给大家一个机会，给他一个机会，给自己一个机会。

但是，莫名的压力，真的让她喘不过气来

她没想过事情会发生到这样的地步

她没想过原来自己高估了自己的能力

原来一切都不是她所想象的那样美好。

她不知道该怎么面对其他人，包括男孩。

她曾经想过要亲手弹一首歌给男孩听

她曾经想过要和男孩去旅行

她曾经想过明年的情人节要送什么礼物才有意义

她曾经想过明年要送给男孩的的生日礼物是什么

她曾经想过今天倒数的时候要和男孩一起度过

她曾经想过圣诞节的时候和男孩一家人一起度过

她曾经想过男孩就是她的未来

她曾经想过男孩就是她的一辈子

当男孩告诉她，她就是男孩回家的原因的时候，那种感觉，没办法形容

当男孩告诉她，她已经是他家里的一分子的时候，那种感觉，仍然没办法形容

男孩为女孩做了好多好多让女孩感动的事，说了好多感动的话

女孩心里的甜蜜，更本就没人能够了解。

但是事情的发展，并不是你能够想象的。

直到那一天，女孩提起了勇气，提出分手的原因。

她承受不了压力。

她不想就这样离开男孩，但是她没办法继续走下去。

她在电脑面前，哭了，哭了好久，好久。。。

累了，决定把这一切写在部落格上。

对不起，对不起。。。

女孩在心里很内疚，很内疚。

她很希望这一切都没有发生过，至少他们还会是好朋友，一位很知心的朋友。

她现在不但失去了男朋友，而且也失去了一位好朋友。

这一切一切都是她苟由自取的，这都是她自己所犯下的错。

知道自己将会失去一个人的感觉，是心疼

知道这样会伤害到男孩的感觉，是内疚

知道这是无路可退的感觉，是恐惧

她的心，真的很痛很痛

眼泪流了多少都弥补不了两颗心的疼痛。

对不起，这三个字，在这个时候，没有意义了

从今以后，男孩有了移民出国的原因

女孩再也没有挽留的原因。

谢谢你，真心的喜欢我。

Dec 14

2011-12-15T02:40:00.006+08:00

I have made a tough decision

I did it

and now I can feel the guilt

I wonder what will happen

I'm scared

I speak out the words , I treat him super cool today

I know I was bad , but I just cant avoid anymore

I have no courage to see him in his eyes

I don't know what wrong's with me , but I just cant walk in

I cant , I cant

I'm super stressed up

and I felt so restless

sorry , sorry

the only thing I can do is to apologize a million times ,if I can

if I have a chance , I wouldn't start this

because end up I'll hurt you and I hurt both of us

I wish to give you a hug if I can .

I wish we're still friends

I wish I can still see you smiling

sorry .

gloomy

2011-12-11T02:14:00.005+08:00

I'm stuck .

Few days of my holiday and I'm all gloomy

that's how bad I am in handling my own emotions

I need something I need some explanations I need so break

I'm so not prepared in this relationship

I'm starting to doubt myself

I'm starting to doubt everyone

people hate to face the truth and started to avoid it

Is this what am I doing right now ?

I hate people who avoid their problems , but now , I'm in this situations

I'm scared to face the truth

I'm scared to tell the truth

I'm scared to lose something good

I wish the decision I made was a right one

I wish nothing bad will happen

I wish I never had done anything until today

no one could understand what am I feeling right now

not even myself , how could you ?

maybe because I care about others , that's the root of all the issues ?

but this is just me being myself

I told you my feelings , not for you to adapt to me but for you to understand

not for you to change yourself . I want you to be yourself .

I dun wan you to change and try to adapt to something else ,or somebody else .

I need some time to think about it ,to think about how should I solve this .

Freedom

2011-12-09T00:35:00.002+08:00

yaaayyyy ! freedommmm !

exam's over !

keep my finger crossed , I wish both of my papers are okay !

so, exam ended yday and my holiday is now officially started .

the best friend aka hyuin came back from UK !

time for outtingsss !

muahahahahaha !

I gonna fully utilized my holidays .

I need a getaway from here .

='(

I'm stuck here !

I missed the time where how things used to be .

which I cant even picture them out now .

stress

2011-12-03T00:34:00.002+08:00

It's already 2nd Dec !

OMG !

freaking stress out !

2 papers in a row , I have to make this clear .

I HAVE TO !

bless me people !

TX and FA !

treat me well .

=))

Kajang Town was flooded today .

a serious and terrible one .

I was lucky enough to stay at home and my housing area wasn't flooded .

thank god !

announcement , best sista gonna come back to Msia !

yaaayyy !

it's only 3 months and I already miss her like crazy !

=))

I seriously need a getaway after this finals .

Hi December

2011-12-01T02:17:00.002+08:00

Hi December , Bye November.

countdown starts , to my finals !

ohhhhhhhh !!!!

EXITED !

I guess everyone is stressing up or pouring FA and TX into our brains .

I wish my brain can fill in everything I study .

all the best peeps !

December is gonna be a good good month , right ?

Cheerrrrrsssss !

we can do this ,

we can do this !

p/s yeaaaaaahhh , boyfriend is coming back in 2 weeks time <3

IMY

2011-11-28T13:26:00.001+08:00

Missing someone gets easier everyday

because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them,

you are one day closer to the next time you will.

Updates

2011-11-28T13:16:00.002+08:00

Revision class for Tax is over .

yup , we have got an ang mo from New Zealand ,

Mr Martin Riley to give us a 3 day course .

class was conducted in a normal way ,

with a unique British accents .

haha !

but we lacked of the usual lame jokes we used to have during our normal class .

I was freaking stressed up these few days ,

is not because of studies , but something else .

my mood was terribly bad and sorry for some who accidentally pissed me off .

mood swings from time to time ,

not that I cant control my emotions ,

I have tried my best ,

but I cant think of any reason to pressure my emotions .

I miss the happy moments I had , the smiles , the laughter and everything else .

I am no longer the past winnie ,

and I aint going to discover the new one .

one week , and that's the finals .

can I do this ?

《别问我是谁》

2011-11-28T00:37:00.000+08:00

2011-11-26T21:18:00.001+08:00

我不想说话

我只想静静的

我只想把一切问题都抛到脑后

可以吗？

Happy 2 months anniversary !

2011-11-24T00:43:00.003+08:00

Gathering at Batu Gajah

2011-11-22T02:00:00.003+08:00

wow wow wow , such a relaxing weekend I had .

Went to Ipoh with my family to attend a dinner held by my parents' primary school !

100th years anniversary of Yuk Kwan School , Batu Gajah !

The only thing I can say was ,

this was pretty awesome timing for all the old friends to meet up .

and they look super effinly happy !

really ! and they started talked non stop ,

take photo everywhere with everyone .

Cant imagine that their primary school standard teacher was there also ,

is already 70+ years old !

OMG !

and they still have chances to talk and chat !

and the teachers still remember them !

looking them , makes me think of my future .

Will my school have some of this dinner ?

will we meet each other at the age of 50 ?

and what reaction will we have ? excited ? touching ? happy ?

haha !

I guess , we will look exactly like what my parents and their friends did yday at the dinner .

can you imagine that ,

people from overseas came back to Malaysia ,just for this dinner ?

Australia , New Zealand , Singapore ...

how they appreciate chances like this to meet up ,

and to have a look at each other after 30+ years ?

Everyone bring along their family members too .

It was a really warm session for everyone .

Everyone looks different , much richer , much more handsome , much more beautiful .

but their hearts are still the same ,

still laugh at each others jokes and thought of the old times ,how they behave in class!

awwwww ! this is so lovely .

you can feel the happiness and the excitement among them .

and of course appreciate the chance and the luck to meet each other

Yes , I can .

2011-11-18T00:07:00.004+08:00

I feel like blogging ,but I dunno what to blog...

some updates perhaps ?

hmm ..revision class for FA is going on now in class .

jokers around are making the class less stressful

yes I do always laugh my lungs out because of all the lame jokes and no logic sense words .

I definitely like classmates like this !

2moro gonna be our last revision class for FA .

I have homework to do ,but I haven't touch .

seriously have no mood to do anything ,right now .

the weather recently wasn't that good ,

it's raining heavily everyday , everywhere was flooded ,

even sunway pyramid's carpark B1 .

walking to my own car is a problem now ...

I dun mind to walk under rain sometimes ,

I need some refreshment ,maybe ?

but sometimes , I like rainy days ,

It makes me feel calm , feel stagnant

and I can really rest , and think

and really think ,

arrange my thoughts

somehow I feel a bit lost ,

a bit confused , stress , tire , demotivating , self depressed etc etc...

again , mood swings ,

every time when I was alone ,

brain cant stop functioning and thinking something else ,

issues that caught me up ,

issues that haven't been settled ,

issues that I still avoiding ....

I'm tire , I'm seriously tire bout this .

I wish I could cry out loud , but I have no reasons to let my tears down .

study Winnie ,study .

this is what I tell myself everyday ,

yet , I'm now blogging like nobody biz .

I really wish I could smile like I did during high school to everyone I met whenever I was .

I like the smile I had , I miss the happiness .

Dec is coming in 12 days time , and my finals is on the 6 and 7 of dec .

can I do this ?

yes ,

I can ,

I can .

《漂流瓶》

2011-11-17T20:25:00.002+08:00

Mock 1

2011-11-15T01:47:00.003+08:00

whoots , 2moro is TX mock !

yesh , I'm prepared to go for mock 2 !

hell yeah~

lalalalalala ~

I seriously have no mood to study anymoreeeee !

screwed the paper la !

LOL !

how la like this , how to go to exam hall !

I told eugene , can I dun go 2moro ?

what's the purpose of going to exam when you already knew that you gonna fail the paper ?!

I might well just go for mock 2 right ?

hahahaha !

damn !

回忆起遗憾的美

2011-11-13T22:25:00.002+08:00

昨晚一口气看了我的部落格之前的帖子。

感觉，好像翻阅着我的成长过程。

从中学时期，中四的我，直到毕业后，

然后与一班以前在班上感情一般的同学，变成了一堆很要好的朋友，

在进大学，认识了不一样的人，

在跨进不一样的生活。。。

点点滴滴，再一次的浮现在脑海里。

那种感觉，不再是以前我有过的痛与哭，

而是从然在我心底正真欣然而笑了出来。

翻阅着一前，我的部落格因为他，

变得了浏览人数极高的部落格。

朋友还说，不如你写小说啊～

很可笑对吧？

而现在呢？

现在却是一位平平无奇的女孩在写着这一篇。。。

我的青春，实在是饱满，相当的踏实。

我没有浪费我的青春，我可以大声的说，我享受了我中学的6年，

当然我会继续的编写及享受的接下来所剩无几的青春时光了。。。

话说，我还有两个月就进入20岁了。。。

活了19年的人生，

我还学不会什么是放下，

什么是遗憾的美丽。

故事的简单还是复杂，我实在没办法去评论。

我真的很想很想，能够与最真诚，最真心的笑笑面对你，

可惜，我没有那个勇气。

但是我相信，在我中学生活里留下脚印的不单单只有你，

当然还有很多很多，对我很好很好的朋友们，

到现在我还很想念他们啊～

往往，就只有你能够把我弄哭的，你真的不简单啊～

人海中，我遇见了你，

我们邂逅了不少次，

在彼此心目中留下了深深浅浅的回忆。

对，是回忆，

回想起时候还真的能够从心中傻笑了出来。。。

我的生活，

现在不再是灰灰的，

你知道吗？

我要大声的告诉自己，

我的生活不再因为你而变得无色彩的。

然而，你的出现，

令我的青春，不是空白的。。。

谢谢你。

我会好好的，

细心的把我们的一切，

收藏在心底最深处的地方，

保留着原有的味道，

最原始的感觉。

《那些年，我們一起追的女孩》

2011-11-12T17:02:00.006+08:00

报告大家，我看了《那些年》

嗯，一部很有意思的电影。

可能对我来说，特别感人。

嗯。。。或许吧！

在还没有看这部电影时，

会很紧张，很心急，

很想看到底这部是一部怎么样的电影。

还没有进电影院，就已经把小说看完了。

看完了小说和电影的感觉，有点苦苦的，酸酸的，但是却是包含着遗憾的幸福。

遗憾，但是很美，并不是每个人都能够拥有一段那么刻骨铭心的爱情。

沈佳宜和柯腾有了这么一段不是所有人能够明白的青春，他们特懂得珍惜。

“或许，在另一个平行时空里，我们是在一起的”

“真的很羡慕他们哦”

“谢谢你喜欢我”

“其实我也喜欢，喜欢着妳的我”

“谢谢你告诉我，让我知道我的青春，从来不是一场独白”

故事里句句经典的对白，就好像一句一句的刺入我的心里。

“你就是幼稚，很幼稚。”

“女孩的成熟，没有一位男孩招架的住。。。。。 ”

朋友对我说，可能我没有那么一段能够让我回忆的爱情，所以看起来平平淡淡的。

其实我却感觉不一样。

那种遗憾后，却不后悔当初大家的决定

如果男孩真的是真心喜欢女孩的，其实当他看见女孩能够找到正真的幸福时，

其实发自心底里的祝福没有人能够比他来的真诚，真心。

女孩说，

“被你喜欢过，就好像觉得觉得别人没有你那么喜欢我了。。。”

“戀愛最美的部分就是曖昧的時候，等到真正在一起，很多感覺就會消失不見”

“然而人生不是一個人，喜歡，也不是一個人的”

“在一起需要两个人的同意，但是分手只需要一个人下决定”

“我们之间總算有個不圓滿，卻很踏實的句點”

“沒有結果的戀愛，只要開了花，顏色就是燦爛的。”

“見識了那道燦爛，我的青春，再也無悔。”

我的青春，也就是中学时期，

育华中学就是我们的青春

在那段辉煌时光，我也见识了那一道灿烂的爱情，再也无悔。

没有结果的恋爱，但是曾经拥有，我不曾后悔。

在我心里，他是我的那些年。

在他心里呢？

我不敢揣测。

好想提起勇气，亲口问他。

好想提起勇气，和他来个深深的拥抱。

画下我们两个之间一个确实又圆满的句点。

在很久以前，不知哪来的勇气，曾经问过他，

而他也让我知道我原來一值都是有響應的，从来也不是一场独白。。。

“那些年错过的大雨，那些年错过的爱情，好想告诉你。。。。 ”

胡夏的《那些年》这首歌，有了另一番意义。

戀愛最美好的，就是曖昧的時候。

如果你真的很喜歡一個女孩的話，當新郎不是妳的話，

那麼你永遠無法祝福她。

結果：不，當你真的很喜歡一個女孩的話，

那麼無論新郎是誰，你都會真心祝福她。

期待

2011-11-11T02:19:00.004+08:00

读完了《那些年》，

真的有一种说不出的感觉。

遗憾，但是美丽

一个不完整，但是很确实的句点

那一段青春，不是一场独白

人生就是不停的战斗

我爱上了书本里的沈佳宜

我也爱上了书本里的柯景腾

不敢想象当我看完了那不电影会怎样。

期待期待。

考试加油，读书加油。

晚安。

2011-11-04T23:57:00.002+08:00

I'M BORED

I'M UNDER STRESS

I need movies

I need jokes

I need shopping

I need lameness

I need laughter

ARGH ....... I DUN WAN TO STUDY

I dun wan to fail the paper again and again !

how laaaaaaa like this ?!!!

Smile

2011-11-02T00:30:00.003+08:00

hey , here I come to blog :)

I have nothing much to elaborate on current life

simply plain ,boring , stressful , lazying , sluggish ....

yes , indeed , this is so called life --- lifeless ?

oh , I shouldn't complain that much

because someone is suffering oversea too =/

well , have been quite a bad mood week before this .

issues get me up and I couldn't solve this without him to talk to .

Issues where I have to face everyday , every minute in the class when me and her meet up

I wish there wasn't hard feeling ...

I wish that isn't an issue , but I felt the difference....

somehow I should just ignore it ?

yes , I did smile when I see her

~ SMILE ~

the boyfriend called and explained everything

made me cried over the phone

"this is what we called ldr ", this is what he tell me .

He tried once , and he failed .

now he is starting a new one , the feeling of fear in him is definitely stronger than mine .

He trust me , and I trust him .

With the distance , the fundamental criteria is to TRUST each other .

when he tell me this ,

finally I understand the real meaning of ldr .

I choose to take this , have faith on myself .

I can settle everything around me

I want to make everyone happy , smile .

Smile , and the world smile with you

Picture by Kid Rock ft Sheryl Crow

2011-11-02T00:22:00.001+08:00

a very nice song

make me remember a friend , who is now in UK

那些年，我們一起追的女孩

2011-10-31T23:44:00.002+08:00

I want to watch this

CFAB Graduation

2011-10-31T00:37:00.004+08:00

Venue : Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre , Plenary Theater

waaaaaaaaa......

2011-10-29T01:56:00.003+08:00

waaaaaaaaa......

freaking gan jiong now !

pt2 tomorrow !

and then graduation in KLCC !

and and and

I haven't think of what attire should I wear !

and

I need HEELSSSS to make me look tall !

no time to shop for it !

I dun wanna look so short =p

ARGHHHHHHHH !!!!

oh ya

btw , I miss the boyfriend ! =)

time to get back to study , again !

I regret that I slack for few days now

='(

爱上一个不回家的人 --- 林忆莲

2011-10-25T01:18:00.002+08:00

爱过就不要说抱歉

毕竟我们走过这一回

从来我就不曾后悔

初见那时美丽的相约

曾经以为我会是你

浪漫的爱情故事

唯一不变的永远

是我自己愿意承受

这样的输赢结果

依然无怨无悔

期待你的出现

天色已黄昏

爱上一个不回家的人

等待一扇不开启的门

善变的眼神

紧闭的双唇

何必再去苦苦强求

苦苦追问

2011-10-23T21:04:00.001+08:00

broke down during the start of the session

A short talk carried out by Catherine

teared up , not because of the story

but because of my private reason , family issues .

Pissed me off

2011-10-21T00:48:00.002+08:00

today early in the morning , someone pissed me off ...

yes ,he did .

I wonder why I can use 45 minutes to drive from Kajang to Sunway ,

but he cant even use 45 minutes to move his ass down the apartment and wait there ?

everytime I have to text him "reached" , then waited like a DRIVER there ...

am I obliged to pick you up ? hello ...??!!

I seriously cannot take this .

Every morning I will have emotional attack because of him , maybe I die younger because of this ? I just cant understand what is he thinking ...

Fine . as usual ,I park my car in elephant walk , well , should I say I notice "things" .

He treated me just like a driver .

my girl friend reached at the same time too , so waited for her to walk to college .

and I shut my mouth up the whole journey .

I wonder why he can talk so nicely , walk beside her , so SLOWLY when she is there .

But what happen is she weren't there ?

I think we have about at least 50m apart ,or more than that . Ha ?

shall I reflect myself in this case .

If he appreciate what people did for him , show some respect . If he doesn't , please ask those person that he thinks he will appreciate to help him , I am not your 24/7.

I am super pissed !

I think Reuben was the first one who know why my face was so emo this morning .

And I shall thanks him ,for understand part of the story .

I am tired of telling everything ... I

dunno who to tell to .

Can I just screw him right in front of his face ?

Fine . Can he like ...don't sleep when I was driving home in a Jam ?

Is my car so nice for him to learn "fishing" lesson ?

I rather todrive alone back ,without him ....

I can blast my radio , oh well , I can blast too when he is fishing ,

since he is not there for chatting purpose

#yes , sarcasm ,I know . who cares ?

damn damn damn

he has crossed the line , like a million thousands time ,

yet I'm still so generous to him ,what da hell am I doing ?

maybe he did something nice , but I don't see it .

#so sorry , but I don't mean it .

2011-10-20T01:34:00.003+08:00

great ,

toss and turn on my bed for more than an hour and I still awake now

how could I go to class 2moro ?

sighs

me want sleeeep

雨过天晴，彩虹出现了 :)

2011-10-18T01:52:00.003+08:00

很久没有写华语了，来一篇华语的吧～

嗯，以前我写华语篇是都是伤心的，悲伤的。

因为我觉得华语字，比较有味道。不是吗？

中学末期的我，

人看起来总是忧伤的。

有很多很多心事似的。

对，没有错，

那时候的我，的确发生了一些不开心的事。

可是回头想想，那是一段值得回忆的日子。

有开心的，有不开心的，

有跌过，有伤过，

有痛过，有疼过，

有酸过，有苦过，

也有哭过。。。

那段日子，让我成长，让我尝试到苦中带甜的滋味。

我很谢谢那个人，相信现在已经不再是秘密了吧？

以前大家都背负着同样的背负，要保护心里想要保护的人。

大家都不肯放手，活在自己的世界里，

走过了那越界的爱情，享受幸福的错觉，品尝着那非一般的滋味。。。

结果到最后，大家都受伤了，

就是那种痛，让我们都明白了，让我们都清醒了。

从梦中清醒的感觉，知道自己要走出梦境，也知道对方再也不适合自己的时候，

往往有一刹那是不舍得，但是理智告诉我，是时候放手了。

就狠下心，切断一切。

就算需要一段时间才能够复原，但是都是值得的。

缠绕在不明不白的爱情里，是不值得的。

有时想起，还会回忆那时光，那种疼，回忆时也会流泪。

哭过，累了，清醒了，就是新的一天。

在灰的日子过了，晴天就来临了。。。

说了再见，还是朋友。

有多少人能够做到。

虽然平时见面，也不过只是寒暄几句。

心中的滋味，大家的心里都会劝告自己，不要再调入那个无底洞。

我们都做到了。

现在，你有你的生活，我有我的生活；

你在你的大学上课，我在我的学院上课；

你有你的女朋友，我有我的男朋友。

你说，希望有一天，我会对你说，我有男朋友了。

现在，你有在读这一篇吗？

我的生活，不再是灰灰的。

他的出现，我脸上有了笑容。

就算是无聊的笑话，也会至少让我无聊一番。

他的出现，为我带来了晴天。

虽然是一个人的晴天，也没关系，

因为我知道有一天，他会回来，带着他令一片的晴天归来。

再痛的我都经历过，这种等待，我相信我们都能够熬过去。

虽然这只是个开始，但是我知道，这段路不会有句号。。。

只要肯相信，就会有希望；

只要肯等待，适合的人就会出现；

只要把握时机，就能够在彩虹出现的那一刹那，留住了那段时光。。。

我等你

因为我知道，你也在等我

Pass !

2011-10-17T21:15:00.002+08:00

yayyy !!!!!

yaaaayyy!!!!!!!

yyaaaaaayyyyyyy!!!!!!!

I was freaking happy when I got my AA results last friday night !

yesh , I pass !

PASS ！

P.A.S.S. !!!!

was chatting with the boyfriend and he kept reminding me that my results gonna out in 5 minutes bla bla bla ....

*naughty him ! *

pass with a quite good mark for me , but my dad complain that mark was low >.

how la dadddyyyy ? ='(

ICAEW , freaking stressful !!!!

fine , back to reality ,

no matter what happen I still have to move on ~

I'm already in this , I have no other choice .

sad sad ,

stress stress ,

die die ~

oh no ~~~~!!!!

* doomed *

sick

2011-10-12T22:13:00.003+08:00

have been a tough week .

yes , I'm down with flu , fever , sorethroat and cough .

stacks of tissues in front of my study table .

this is what you can see if you're in class with me being in serious flu .

hahas !

I'm still in the progress of recovering =/

sighs , hope I can recover fast.

I want to talk and laugh as usual !

hmm , had my TX pt2 .

well , is better than what I though of ,

since I din study much ,

okay ,

to be true , I flipped through the notes only .

because of terrible sickness , I felt that I should defer the paper .

but I know somehow defer or not , I still fail the paper .

so just get through it as fast as possible !

GrrRRr~

now going back on normal classes again

This coming Saturday is the Graduation day held by SWY .

well , we're not not attending though .

but of course , we're attending the one held by ICAEW !

^^V Weeeeee , bias ! LOL

=')

2011-10-09T01:52:00.001+08:00

Updates

2011-10-08T14:18:00.002+08:00

FA pt1 is over.

well , I actually studied , but just cant figure out why still I cant do the questions =/

sighs , TX pt2 is coming on next tuesday

screweddd the paper laaaaa!

I haven't start studying for tax .

shall start tonight .

today is Swy's parents day .

luckily my dad is not going , well , I said , no need to go la...

I know I'm a bad daughter =/

hmm....hmmm...........

I have nothing much to elaborate on current situation .

Weather in M'sia is pretty good , windy and rainy .

I love this weather .... but no heavy rain when I'm driving k ?

heavy rain when I'm at home or when I am sleeping .

hahas !

I miss my best sista aka Huey Yuin who now in UK .

saw her status mentioning about the whether there , quite cold .

take care ~~~

Life is simply plain without all the outings

yet , this is to compensate the days I went out last few months ?

well , somehow I love staying at home and laze around .

*dream on* yes , I should bury my head into the books , instead of blogging ?

recovered from fever and flu .

god bless

sickness helped me to claim back my sleeping debt in two days.

thanks =)

I have been sleeping days and nights these few days.

somehow I missed the smile that I had last time

=')

I'm missing the boyfriend now ='(

2011-10-07T23:19:00.001+08:00

miserable

2011-10-07T01:33:00.004+08:00

S.T.R.E.S.S

stress !

stressing over TX and FA

stressing over the exams

stressing over the graduation thingy , of course the S-TES ones

stressing over I skipped class

stressing over the progress letter aka report card

(yea , is a report card , wth ?!?!?!?!)

wondering why S-TES making my life so miserable ?????

stressing over my sickness !

sighs !

sick

2011-10-05T23:12:00.003+08:00

I am sick

I am so sick ...

Flu during classes ,

and now having fever .

headache .

no mood to study at all

wish I can smile tomorrow morning

I miss my boyfriend so much ~

Lucky :)

2011-10-04T00:42:00.007+08:00

was chatting with the boyfriend via MSN .

another heart to heart talking time

and everything looks like a miracle .

we recalled how we met during primary school

how we become close friends

how we manage to build a strong friendship bond

how we encourage and support each other when each other have troubles

and all these happened when we're just friends , nothing much .

No doubt , we trust each other

I'm glad that I have him with me.

while I was waiting for him to come online , I thought of :

hey , I'm in a relationship with Kah hang , wow ~

It's just like a dream .... am I in the right dream ?

I have never thought of this guy would be my boyfriend .

Since last time , he is labeled as my best friend ,

a friend where always support me no matter what happen .

A friend who can go crazy with me at any moments .

The friendship between us is stronger than ever .

We're just close , super close friends .

but hey , I'm his girlfriend now yo!

wow , is just like a dream ~

there is one saying sounds like this ,

"to meet someone right is not as easy as you thought ;

to meet someone right , and he loves you too is another miracle. "

hey , am I dreaming ?

if this is a dream , I wish I will never wake up

there are so many coincidences happened ,

and these little sparks between us lead to a start in our relationship

If he never ever went for studies in overseas , all this wouldn't happen ;
If I never went to a gathering , I wouldn't even meet him before he left ;
If I never ever promise to accept the belated bday present , I wouldn't have got his hug ;
If he never drop by my house , we wouldn't even meet the night before he flew off ;
If I can go out during late night , he wouldn't need to drop by my house to give me that present ;
If he didn't extend his holidays , all these wouldn't happen ;

without all these , we're still friends .

can I say , I'm lucky ?

Hyper-ness

2011-10-04T00:05:00.002+08:00

here I come to blog again !

today's class was funny !

I was super hyper today

LOL

I can laugh non stop for nothing ,

and I continued laughed at myself cause I can stop laughing !

you get what I mean ?

hahahahahha !

yea , I am going crazy !!!!!!

Until Eugene Eunice and Carmen also cannot take it .

They looked at me like "What the hell happened to Jiaping? "

seriously ... I cant figure out what's wrong with me .

according to carmen ,

I was hyper when I get not enough sleep or I was exhausted .

ah , maybe she's right about this .

Carmen carmen carmen ~~~~

Today we celebrated Danny's and Airil's belated birhtday !

hahaha ! cream plan turned into mayo plan !

ohhh oooowwh~~~~~~~

the whole EB G-3 smells like mayonnaise !

well , obviously the boysss had fun chasing each other while throwing the mayo-plate

and of course the girls enjoyed watching ! LOL

hmm ~~~~

and tax class ended early !!!!

oh ya ~ kesian Airil ,I bought him a pearl-less chatime !

and somemore need to exchange strawwww ~

LOL

*back to reality*

aihz ~~~~~

the feeling of bugging me to study is so annoying !

time to hit the sack

2011-10-03T00:48:00.002+08:00

attended a wedding dinner :)

photos updates

nerdy look ! hahas ! randomness when I was too bored in class !

spotted Eunice behind me ! hahas !

=)

2011-09-30T23:39:00.002+08:00

tada ~ I came to blog when I was too bored , as usual

but I dun wanna go study ~

ah ah ah ~

I failed my pt1 for tax gao gao , but still dun wanna study !

what's wrong with me !

LOL

the boyfriend is studying now ~

and I am blogging !

woohoo ~

haiz , kah mun said "ai ya .. nowadays , I dun have motivation to come for classes dy "

and I said " yeaaaaa ~~~~ so stress la ~ "

yes , this is exactly what we're feeling now

FA and TX are both stressing us up till the max .

I really have no idea what the lecturers are teaching

and the information is too much for us to absorb .

sighs ~

pt1 for FA on next Saturday , and pt2 for Tax is few day after FA .

ohhhh NO ~~~~~

ahh ~ the CFAB graduation have caused some issue to the sunway's management .

well , this is what CFAB student behave nowadays ?

ah , sounds bad .

This is us , we're the CFAB student .

not to say we're arrogant , but we will voice out if we feel that it is unreasonable ~

sighs , another issue to cope with .

hope everything will turn out good .

Overseas

2011-09-27T20:29:00.002+08:00

well , let me announce to everyone ,

how many friends of mine have left to overseas:

wei chien

huey yuin

win kee

mun hong

zhong xin

samson

ding gui

yi heng

daniel meng jiang

wow , the list is quite long huh ~

akhem , of course the boyfriend also in oversea , since last year ~

='(

friends leaving me one by one ~

all the best everyone !

we're gonna fight for our future .

hmm ~

just got updates from Zhi Lin , the only one who sent off Win Kee in KLIA .

wow , the scene he told me super-ly touching wei !

if I were there , confirm I will cry !

=')

winkee , you have such a good bro .

forever both of you wont forget that few seconds !

remember to bring him , or, sponsor him travel around UK ~

haha !

Updates

2011-09-25T21:37:00.004+08:00

after some sentimental posts , now gonna update everyone here !

huey yuin reached London safely ~ =))

although there's 7 hours time difference , but still cant stop us from chatting even for few minutes everyday ! hahas !

aiyoyo ~

hmm .... 23/9/2011 , a day to remember

sadness , happiness , all lump together .

I din even know how to separate all these mixed feelings

but ya , I know I feel good . and I'm okay the day after .

all the best to all my friends who are leaving / have left Msia !

see you guys at the top kayyss ?!

hahas !

P/s : Winkee and Samson are leaving on Monday . One to UK , another to India ='(

好好照顾自己

2011-09-24T01:55:00.004+08:00

云，

本来不想搞到你哭的

但是最后你还是哭了

亲爱的，今晚你上飞机了

现在已经在飞机上了~

不要哭了，要笑着离开。

今晚没有对你说过一句话，因为我知道我开口，就说不出话了。

哽咽的声音，令人更加难过。

我选择了对你微笑，挥手。

你也是。

那一霎那的悲，我们永远都回铭记在心中。

那个拥抱，令我流泪了。

我永远会记得，

在玻璃后面的你挥着手，脸是微笑着的。

天下无不散之筵席 =)

大家都明白这个道理。

好好照顾自己好吗？

别让自己冷到，不要感冒

吃多点水果，买些干粮放在房间。

早点睡。。。

好了不唠叨你了。

加油哦！

有什么事，记得来找我们。

这是我们对你的承诺，永不改变。

记得，我们永远都在你背后看着你，支持你。

坚强的小女孩，要微笑着读完这篇文章。

来，笑一个。

* huggies *

I will miss you till the world ends ~

献给妳　=)

2011-09-23T13:27:00.008+08:00

慧云，这篇时写给你的。

你，算是我最好的朋友，嗯，应该说是姐妹了！

虽然form5毕业过后，大家都在不同的college，但是我们还一直都有保持联络！

那时候，你有困难，身为好朋友的我，没这么能够帮到你。

对不起。我答应你，以后有什么事一定会在你背后，支持你！

嗯。。。。今晚你就要飞了。

想到真的有点舍不得，眼泪都要流下来了。

但是我不想让你哭着上飞机啊~ ！

哈哈！

你能够出国，是一件很开心的事！

以后我可以去找你！

然后你带我旅行~

呵呵！

慧云，你是我认识当中，最了解我的一个人。

知道我的性格，然后很配合我。

谢谢你，谢谢你一路来的陪伴。

我不能相信，如果没有你，我的日子是怎样过的。

你是一个很坚强的人，一个有自己的原则的小女生。

如果你要完成一件事，没有人能够阻止你。

你有自己的想法，自己的方法去解决问题。

有时候，你要明白逃避不是最好的方法。

但是如果你觉得你会比较开心，我永远都支持你的！

到了外国，不要害怕~

你知道你身边有很多朋友的。

你朋友不比我少，而且那么漂亮，肯定会有很多护花使者的！

呵呵！

好好照顾自己，有什么事，记得来spam 我的wall

开心的，伤心的，都可以！

呵呵！

我任何时刻都回欢迎你的！

小学时候的你，可爱纯真

中学时刻的你，漂亮单纯

现在的你，成熟，漂亮，坚强，独立。。。

不要什么事都自己撑，要告诉我们。

我啊，佳恩啊，宽杰等等，都会为你standby ~

好了，不写了，在写你都会哭了！

哈哈！

看看照片吧～

无数的回忆就会在你脑海里浮现。

Love you babe , miss you !

友共情

2011-09-21T22:58:00.003+08:00

well well , I'm back to this bloggie !

hahas !

time to update my outings =D

17 September 2011

Cycling @ Putrajaya & dinner @ Look Out Point

yaayy ! went to Taman Botani to have some recreation activities !

Cycling !

RM4 per hour per Bicycle !

quite fun and relaxing

you guys should try it out !

well , but do practise your cycling skills 1st ya !

if not you will end up like me =p

haha !

luckily I din fall from my bike HAHAHAH !

sunburn day ! LOL

after cycling , we went to "7 happiness" restaurant to have our lunch !

hmm ! no more secondary school memories when the restaurant move to new place =/

tada ~ after that ..... slacking at Yuin's home !

again , we're there playing monopoly and blocks =)

ahhh haaa ! this time we got new board games -----> Cluedo !

quite fun playing Cluedo !

Mrs White *akhem* people, you know the jokes la har ~

then then .....

dinner time !

we are going to Look Out Point !

the final decisions ~ before that we kept changing places and plans !

so cooling up there !

with MIST !

hello ~ got mist in Look Out Point !

so rare !

because it was raining before that !

and is seriously cooling !

I love the weather up there !!!!

spending time chit chating , telling lame jokes !

hahaha ! that's just so US !

I love my friendsss !

but ya , some of them are leaving dy ='(

awww ....sad !

Freaking stress !

2011-09-16T02:06:00.002+08:00

ah !

consecutive days of long hours classes are driving me crazy !

FA and TX both are technical papers !

and they are so packed compare to AA .

have to train up my stamina to stay for long hours classes

and also prolong my concentration span !

Freaking stress when doing FA questions !

I'm starting to hate CFAB !

Even CAT is better !

sigh ~~~~~

What I have learnt in CFAB ?

HUH !

gonna screwed t eh graduation of CFAB !

I dun think I'm going la ..duh ~

Compare to what we're doing now ,

the graduation is indeed meaningless , don't you think so ?

some more the costs weren't reasonable !

urgh ~

massive traffic jam makes my tireness even worse ... until to frustration !

seriously !

why la ..... traffic jam exist in my life everyday ?!

aiiiiihhhzzz !

done with rant-ing ~

and now I'm awake due to 3 hours sleep straight after I reached home =p

*HI* midnight world !

oh ya !

HAPPY MALAYSIA DAY !

LOL

Smurfffyy day !

2011-09-11T22:19:00.002+08:00

Hi peeepsss !

I'm so smurf right now !

LOL , obviously ,

just finish watching smurf !

muahahahahhaa !

la la lalalala sing a happy song !

addicted to this , and will use this to annoy people !

wooohhoooo ^^

well , I like BLUESSS =D

okaysssssssss .....

*calm down*

oops , just now someone being so nice ,

tracking me all the way to the traffic light ,

just to make sure I'm not being stalked by other people !

wow ! so warm ..but I escaped from him ... LOL

well , last time I din know somebody will really do this , but my brother did !

my brother seriously super nice protective guy !

he drove all the way behind a female friend's car and follow her back home ,

in cheras you know !

and then drove back to Kajang .

just to make sure she reached home safely !

protective brother I have !

smurfy day ! smurfastic !

TX and FA

2011-09-10T01:52:00.002+08:00

Final for AA is over !

haha !

as expected I got super hyper that night !

hahas !

and really can feel the burden ..seriously ...

woke up without the feeling of bugging you to study was great !

hmm ....well , sadly , we don't have a long long holiday after final !

class on thursday , FA and TX !

supposed to be a 9 hour class !

but lecturer let us off earlier !

woohoooo !!!!

and ...our class seriously damn funny la that day !

1st ...classroom wasn't open and we gotta sit outside the classroom and wait for it to open =.=

then ... during FA class , got FLY came into our class ..and bring us a lot of jokes !

akhem , of course someone bocorkan rahsia , Airil ! LOL

I guess we all are too stress up ,

cause no holiday for us ,

as a result

everyone was hyper !

well , after class I went back home

and classmates are going to The Library , with beloved lecturer Mr Ong .

ah , I din go .

can see that they really enjoy the night there from the photoss taken !

cheeerrrsss !

不要害怕

2011-09-05T22:49:00.001+08:00

BAAAAHHHH !

2011-09-05T01:47:00.003+08:00

baaaaaaaaah !

arrrggghhhh !!!!!

okay , ignore me ,

I'm being crazy in the midnight , again !

mmmmmm....

one more day !

oh no !!!!

STRESS

EXCITED

WORRIED

mixed feelings

nooooooo >.<

bless me , I will pass this papar !

泪海

2011-09-04T01:31:00.000+08:00

I'm hard to handle

2011-09-03T00:42:00.005+08:00

gah , I dunno why ,

I just like to complain to you

and today you tell me something which again ,

makes me to reflect myself again

I'M SO HARD TO HANDLE

am I right, people ?

please ,tell the truth .

now I know ....

thank you very much for accepting who am I.

I will change and become not hard to handle

and you guys can actually forgo me ,

no need to handle me

again and again...

just come up front and tell me ...

I will leave ,

shut up

keep quiet

the truth hurts

2011-09-02T00:54:00.003+08:00

I'M SCREWED !

WHY AM I STILL CANT FULLY FOCUS

SOMEONE PLEASE SAFE MEEEEEEEE

PULL ME OUTTA HELL !

='(

FREAKIN STRESS !

Maldives

2011-09-01T15:22:00.005+08:00

ahhh !

I viewed one blog , and it makes me feel like

MALDIVES is one of the MUST-GO island !!!!

haha !

let's see photoosssss !!!!!

pretty model ~

photo credited to blog onwer : http://www.hinika.net

hahas . only a few photos here =p

hmm !

study hard , earn money , then go travel !!!!

weeee ^^V

who wanna go with me ??!!

Afterall

2011-08-31T02:56:00.002+08:00

yayy yayy yayy !

it's 3 am now !

wow , I sounds so hyper >.<

hmm .....no more

EMO ATTACK !!!

weeee ^^V

Special thanks to those who speak with me :-

Jack

James

Derrick

Danny

Carmen

your words make me feel better

my issues wouldn't be settled so fast

yet , I should just gave myself sometime to see who am I ,

and Who I want to be

well ~ well ~

thanks jack for being there when I need him

thanks danny for being someone I can pamper to him

thanks derrick for talking to me ,

giving me suggestions

telling me what to do and what not to do

thanks james for giving me so many words and boost my spirit , hahas !

seems like I'm not that alone afterall right ?

haha !

I shall just got back to you , and trust you in how you handle your case with him/her .

I trust both of you , so do we .

you can always have me by your side .

2011-08-30T15:30:00.003+08:00

EMO

NEMO

='(

2011-08-30T15:23:00.002+08:00

have a talked with jack about my life ,too

well , he did make me to reflect myself

an issue where I din really think about it before he said that

hmm ..well , I care what he said , his words .

maybe I really did the wrong things

I din really handle all these well enough

I should have set a border line / limit to whatever I am going to do

I feel like , I am risking all my friendships

seriously , I will stay SINGLE until I make this clear .

bless me peeps .

2011-08-30T00:54:00.002+08:00

another long night I had

or shall I said , tough ?

telling jack about that ,

makes me feel better

at least someone buy my idea ,

and know what am I thinking

it makes me sounds like I am normal person , not an idiot .

but talking to him , makes me feel like crying ..

dunno why ....the feeling just came by ....

why it's always me ?

good question .

why I always have all these to attack me in the same time

well well

life's GREAT !

care less

2011-08-29T12:51:00.002+08:00

had a massive argue with you

well , sorry ,

I just cant agree with your thinking

but again ,

we will never stop arguing over this again and again

maybe this is the way you handle this

and I shall not comment everything

I shall step out from the picture and do nothing

care less ,

now I get the meaning of it .

sorry to whoever ,

I will leave it as it is .

2011-08-29T12:46:00.002+08:00

well well , after all the outings / plans ....

exams hit me again and again !

LOLHAHAHAHA

hmm ...passed both pt2 and mock !

er ...luckily no need to take mock 2

but I'm kinda disappointed with my marks though

BUT I HAVE NO MOTIVATION TO STUDY AT ALL !

urgh ! feel like slapping myself unlimited times

='(

who can safe meee ??!!

Pn. Arin's Birthday Celebration

2011-08-27T01:02:00.007+08:00

Just right after Melacca trip ,

random plan came out from me --- to celebrate Miss Arin's bday

since Monday 22/8 I have no class , and everyone is free .

So randomly planned to have a celebration (Surprise party) for her in Yu hua .

- Monday 22/8/2011 -

woke up late

Yuin picked me up

bought cake

reached school

met up with wk ,whui , klun ,lb, wherng

decided to buy bday gift ----> vase + flower !

everything's ready !

waited Arin to come down from staffroom ....

then .... Yanhui "I think she went back dy"

HUH ? WHAT ?

okays , emo attacked !

busy calling her ....*she no pick up*

searching for her address , asking other teachers for her house address ...

but unlucky , couldn't get one .

OKAY ....MY PLAN FAILED ...FAILED ....

super emo-ish

slacking at yuin's house while waiting for her reply

and celebrated qwei bday .

Me , with the birthday cake :)

Win Kee with the flower "where's Pn arin ?" LOL

Wei Herng with the =.= look

*sorry , I din plan well*

Wen Hui with the lost look

hahas !

= Plan Failed =

- Tuesday 23/8/2011 -

tada ~

finally have an appointment with Miss Arin to drop by her house at night !

and we can have a catch up session !

people attended : me , yuin , wen hui , yan hui , Wherng , Lb , klun and wk

hmm ..quite a warm session with Arin and she's still that cute !

haha ! of course and her daughter too !

Shaelynn --- the natural borned poser !

Huey Yuin & Win Kee with Pn . Arin

Lb and Shaelynn !

Shaelynn so exited , sharing her toys with LB !

Group Photo before we left !

We Love You , Pn . Arin !

Miss you .

Melacca Trip II

2011-08-25T21:53:00.008+08:00

The next morning : Breakfast !

4th stop : Stall 88 Jonker Streets

Emo-ish photo of Khang Lun !

Then we went jalan jalan at Jonkers again !

Photosss !

Next on : Liang Bin's Bday celebration !

Cheerssss !

What's next : Blocks + King game !

Poser !

King game , again .

Left M'cca at about 4 pm !

Had chicken Rice Balls b4 we left.

Group Photo without WK !

Nice trip !

I have awesome friendsss ^^V

Melacca Trip I

2011-08-25T21:04:00.009+08:00

20/8/11 - 21/8/11

Melacca trip

After Kapas trip , Melacca trip was the next stop !

EAT EAT EAT !

the whole plan was to eat ONLY !

^^V

oh, time to get fat and fat !

okays , people who attended are :

wei herng

win kee

liang bin

khang lun

huey yuin

jia en

cheeli

wen hui

well well , look at the list ,

for the 1st time ever in our life ,

5C's outings girls are more than guys !

HAHAHAHAHAH !

1st stop : Ikan Bakar and Seafood @ Portuguese Settlement

The Sweet couple : Wei Herng and Cheeli

2nd stop : Jonker street !

3rd stop : Satay Celup

yummy !

Huey Yuin's closed up --- PRETTY !

Birthday celebrations : Huey Yuin and Wei Herng

This is my Bday cake ah ????

Really my bday cake : muffins + rocky ?

Masterpiece of Huey Yuin

to be continue ....

Jack's day !

2011-08-25T20:45:00.005+08:00

14th August 2011

Jack's Birthday Celebrations

Went green box .

hmm ...nothing much to elaborate on these I perhaps =p

planned to do a bbq sessions at Wk's house .

well , people attend weren't that much , plan called off

since we have time before everyone left home

tada ----> blocks time @ wk's house

The Birthday boy - Jack

Wei herng's super serious face !

Yuin successfully made a move !

hahas , Interrogation ??? LOL

Khang Lun lose ! haha !

truth or truth ?

Nice day

p/s Wei chien flew off on this date 14/8/2011

2011-08-25T20:38:00.002+08:00

ah , finally I have time for blogging

I know I've been so happening these days .

tire tire tire

stress stress stress

will gonna update here where I've been , what I have done all these days

time to replay all the memories ....

一眼瞬间

2011-08-17T02:22:00.002+08:00

Wei Chien

2011-08-14T00:41:00.004+08:00

Wchien's farewell with the Pengawas gang on Friday night !

I went .....

I have chosen him over my pt2 !

see , you're such important ! =)

the farewell was really heart warming !

and now , you are leaving M'sia in less than 24 hour !

quoted from you : -

" Less than 24hours and i will begin my new chapter of life. "

a whole new chapter of your life

wish you all the best my dear friend =)

You know you have some kind of position in my heart !

记得报平安哦！

I will miss you till the world ends !

不哭。。。

2011-08-12T01:08:00.004+08:00

不知怎么形容今晚的感觉

莫名的甜蜜

莫名的感动

莫名的开心

莫名的不舍

莫名的想你

好，不哭。。。

哭累了就睡吧

我睡得着吗？

最遥远的距离，就是看着你，却不能对你说我爱你...

如果有一天我爱上你，真的没办法了。。。

没办法了，就在一起了

等人其实是不容易的事

最重要，是要等对的人

啊。。。。我肯定我等的是对的人。。。。

其实我也在等人，就是在等愿意等我的人～

你读书加油，工作加油～！

不开心的时候，告诉我

不要自己一个人扛

看着你那句“等你”，很感动

那一晚

2011-08-12T00:47:00.004+08:00

那个紧紧的拥抱

真的让我不知所措

你可以不要走吗?

汽车使走了。。。

站在门边的我眼泪开始流了。。。。

流到不会停。。

啊。。说过不哭的！

但是还是做不到了

背对你

就是没让你看见

我很想念你

现在就很想念你了

怎么这次的感觉那么深。。。

好好照顾自己，知道吗？

我说过，会等你。

-家屏-

Redbox @ Gardens

2011-08-09T23:57:00.004+08:00

well , although I almost KO now , but still it doesn't stop me to blog about today !

10 August 2011 @ Redbox Gardens, a day to remember !

9 hours of singing session !

I'm lucky enough that my throat survive after this !

let me tell you who are going before i start:-

Huey Yuin

Kian Ann

Sze Ern

Chim Yoong

Kah Hang

did you notice there are 3 couples !

well , I was noob enough as I only realized this during the last song ! LOL

okay ~ well , initially I was planning to ffk since I cant get up from my lovely bed

but then ....oh , james is leaving dy !

have to meet him up =D

so ...tada , here I go ....

and I suggested to dump movie and go for karaoke .

as the result , the woman who suffered sore throat aka Sze ern ,

who was initially dun wan to sing , sing the most !!!!

hahahahah !

well , this is usual !

hmm!

nice singing session with you guys !

and for the 1st time , someone accompanied me to finish my fav songs !

yay yay !

thanks kah hang !!!!

@你最珍贵 @广岛之恋

and of course some oldies !

Huey Yuin !!!

please sing with mic ! hahahahhah !

You sing really well !!!!

I'm serious !

and all the songs you chose have your own singing style ! =p

Sze Ern , you found your songs , finally !

and I think you cheated us at 1st , saying you have sore throat !

LOL

and I like the crazy part !

*you guys know la huh*

outcome of the day , lets see what's up in fb

Cytan :

New RECORD !!! Spent 9 hours with Lim Kian Ann, Yeong Sze Ern, James Leong,Jia Ping, Huey Yuin in K-box !!! Bravo !!!

连续唱《恋爱ing》，《离开地球表面》，《噢买尬》！还要充当演唱者，主持人，观众，山顶上的朋友，真的尝过前所未有的HIGH ！2nd BRAVO！

Huey Yuin : I want my voice back =(

Kian Ann : 瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦瘦我想瘦我要用力瘦~~>.<

Me : a whole new record Huey Yuin Yeong Sze Ern Lim Kian Ann Cy Tan LOL ! I'm the only one without hug ='( saddddd !

This is an awesome day hanging out with you guysss !

p/s : no photos

photo taken day after =)

we miss both of you , Henk & James

Mood swings

2011-08-07T23:52:00.004+08:00

out of sudden

mood swings

crapssss

lots of thoughts flowing out now

I don't think I can handle this

You , reminded me of him

after 1 year ...

I thought I can move on

well , I guess I'm wrong

I thought the trip distracted me from him2

yet , now I am back to him1

why ?

Idk

I need to calm down

I know I can do this

I have to

- Life Goes On -

060112 (2)

060112 (1)

那些年，我們一起追的女孩

A Thousand Years

生日快乐 ！

给你的

I care

The unpredictable

Hi 2012

我想 （4）

我想 （3）

我想 （2）

我想 （1）

2012 is here !

2011年苦中甜

没有什么重要的

Merry Christmas

Confused

还是一样的12月

I wish I have someone to cry on

人海中遇見你

我怎么办？

心痛了

I'm tireeee

就这样

That's it

谢谢你喜欢我

Dec 14

gloomy

Freedom

stress

Hi December

IMY

Updates

《别问我是谁》

Happy 2 months anniversary !

Gathering at Batu Gajah

Yes , I can .

《漂流瓶》

Mock 1

回忆起遗憾的美

《那些年，我們一起追的女孩》

期待

Smile

Picture by Kid Rock ft Sheryl Crow

那些年，我們一起追的女孩

CFAB Graduation

waaaaaaaaa......

爱上一个不回家的人 --- 林忆莲

Pissed me off

雨过天晴，彩虹出现了 :)

Pass !

sick

=')

Updates

I'm missing the boyfriend now ='(

miserable

sick

Lucky :)

Hyper-ness

=)

Overseas

Updates

好好照顾自己

献给妳 =)

友共情

Freaking stress !

Smurfffyy day !

TX and FA

不要害怕

BAAAAHHHH !

泪海

I'm hard to handle

Maldives

Afterall

care less

Pn. Arin's Birthday Celebration

Melacca Trip II

Melacca Trip I

生日快乐！

我想（4）

我想（3）

我想（2）

我想（1）

献给妳　=)